Attitude, it's time to start anew. :)

This past break has really had me catch up with God and my relationship with Him, which is great.
I needed it.
I really hope that a lot of the other students or students just from any where that are followers of Christ were able to do the same.

Anyways, looking back once again on my semester on how I may have acted around people that I had befriended, became in a relationship with, or professors, anyone in general, I've realized I don't necessarily like my attitude.
It's really...'bleh.'

I say this because there would be moments where I would not even think before I re-act, speak, or anything. It's really disappointing on my side because I am 18 and I need to be mature, an adult. It's time to start acting more like an adult. I know that I have not always been mature, and maturity definitely does not come with age.

Many times people would say, "Yeah, Mak, you're really mature for your age." For my age, but am I mature? I don't think I'm ALL THAT mature, but, yes, I do indeed have certain mature qualities.

I would like to display not a teenage reaction on certain situations. I would not to 'spaz' if I get upset about a certain situation or rant on about how something may have made me angry.
If I want to take care of such a fashion, I need to act mature and talk about it either calmly and rationally WITHOUT trash talking, swearing, or wanting to be all, "grr I hate this, I hate that...*insert swear here*"

I am willing and attempting to change my maturity level and attitude for the better of not only for the glory of God, nor myself, but for others! I am doing this mainly for the benefit for God and people so that they may see this display of Christ and hopefully take initiative to acting similar in their own sense for the glory of God.

I know it is not biblical to 'go over the top'. I have gone over the top about things. I have that tendency, but I have controlled myself, too. I want God to take control and calm me.
I want God to guide my heart to be peaceful, and not angry, nor filled with haste. I want God to help me guide others to even follow the example of Christ who was able to be at peace and at anytime He had felt troubled, He would pray. I want to be able to pray just as Jesus did..along with even Daniel, and other prophets, or followers.
I want others to be able to follow such an example.

I have displayed a character that is pretty outgoing on campus, but am I displaying an example of Christ? That's what I want to know...
I want to be able to have the same attitude Christ had, sharing love and happiness with everyone. Sharing wisdom, guidance, God's word, and the joy of the Spirit that lives not only in me, but surely many of His people on campus, and abroad! :D

I realize that this is a challenge, but this is a challenge that I am willing to take for God and others. I am willing to do this. I want to change for the better. Not only do I feel I need this personally, but others need this so that we may not have issues, or anything, whatever it may be.

Satan is going to try to tear me down, he will do anything and everything possible, but with God, my God is higher, my God is stronger...with God..I have strength. I take refuge in Him.
In the times of hardship in my journey, God will always be my strong tower, and fortress. I will praise and thank Him for the sacrifice of His son Jesus, everything that He gives and takes from me, hardships, people that are in my life, wisdom, intelligence, everything, and anything...that are apart of my life and that I've endured are the true blessings that I will be thankful for from Him.

Thankful, I am for the fact that God is working through me and is wanting to use me in such a way.

The joy I feel is hard to express, but all I can definitely say that I know is it is definitely God. God is so good.

God, you never cease to amaze me.
You're so awesome. I know I don't say it often, but really, You are. :)

Psalm 121

A song of ascents.

1 I lift up my eyes to the mountains—
where does my help come from?
2 My help comes from the LORD,
the Maker of heaven and earth.

3 He will not let your foot slip—
he who watches over you will not slumber;
4 indeed, he who watches over Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep.

5 The LORD watches over you—
the LORD is your shade at your right hand;
6 the sun will not harm you by day,
nor the moon by night.

7 The LORD will keep you from all harm—
he will watch over your life;
8 the LORD will watch over your coming and going
both now and forevermore.

Lord, thank you for helping all of us, Your people, watching over us, guiding us and our hearts towards You. Help us to keep our attitudes and hearts set on the heart that You have so that our attitudes and hearts are a complete display of Your son, Jesus Christ.
Amend our lives according to Your will, never ours. Help us to keep Your decrees and follow them, holding them close and dear to our hearts.
I thank You for all that You do for us, during both the day and night. Guide us to be thankful for such a blessing, it is completely truthful.
Thank you, Lord.
Let our lives be lived all out for the glory of You, according to Your will, full of thanks and praise.
In Jesus name I pray,
Amen.

I hope that this post shares not only my struggles, but touches your hearts in way that you will exam yours, too.

Blessings on your journey in the faith through light and dark.
<3 Mak