Christmas...this year doesn't really feel all that significant. I think that's probably because my family didn't take the time to decorate, put up the tree, or anything. It really...bothered me inside, but what I have really come to recognize is that, none of that is important at all.
What is important is that we take time to exam our hearts and notice, are we recognizing the birth of a Savior? Are we making time for Jesus? Are we sharing the story of the birth of our Savior and how He came to save us?
The only time I ever get to hear the story of the birth of Jesus the most is in church when I go to a Christmas service and sit with friends. In my family, during all my life we've never taken recognition of Jesus's birth, which it never bothered me growing up, but now that I am an adult I have noticed that IT IS important Jesus's birth is shared throughout the Christmas season.
What I really want to do tomorrow for Christmas (technically today) is to share the story of Jesus's birth with my family both here at my Mom's house and Dad's place. I want them to know how great it is that we have a Savior and what He has done for us! I know I may face the stubbornness of my family, but I am willing to face that because I love my family, they need to hear the good news of Jesus. :)
What I have also noticed in my heart is, I have been feeling selfish. I have sat here thinking, "oh, where is my presents? where are my gifts..." How selfish and ignorant is that? Pretty childish of me. I know deep down, my family can't afford to do gifts for anyone at all. They can only afford to do a decent meal for us and THAT I should be thankful for along with my family. God has blessed me with clothing, a roof over my head, a bed to sleep in, a loving family, friends, a boyfriend, food to fill me, my family, and friends for this Christmas. He has blessed me with a Savior as well. I should be VERY thankful.
In my heart, it should be about Him, not gifts. I am really praying that I can keep my eyes focused on Him and what God has done for us by having Mary giving birth to a Savior in order to save all of us from sin. I mean, I seriously rather pray that not only for myself, but for all of us, in realism. That's vital. I don't want us to fall into temptation and being all, "yes, I've gotten, this, and this...blah blah blah..(insert whatever gift name here)" because that temptation is immensely easy to fall into. I've done it for all these years not knowing that sin, and now that I know I've sinned in my past, but again, I am forgiven for such sin, I want to redeem and make a change in my heart to do what is right for my Lord, and I want to inspire you all with my thoughts in this blog to do what is right for our God as well this Christmas, and all the Christmas seasons to come before our Lord returns to us.
This Christmas to be honest, I am actually more thankful than ever because God is using me in such awesome ways that I can't even begin to explain to you all. God has really worked on my heart just this little time I've been home. It's only been a few weeks and He's inspired me to use a blog to do ministry, exam my heart to do what is right and use my journey to inspire others to do what is right for the glory of Him...etc.
In this season, like I've mentioned earlier, my family can't really afford to get gifts which is what I've found to be realistic..I found out a lot of things about my family and what has been going on here since I've been gone.
Since I am not receiving any gifts that I know of from my family, I am actually thankful that I am NOT. Why? God is teaching me the value that gifts are not important compared to Jesus. I am so blessed to be taught this lesson in such a fashion.
Items of the world are NOTHING compared to the gift of a Savior. He is teaching me that the blessings of a family, friends, food on the table, and Him are so much more.
The story of a Savior is what truly made my Christmas season so significant and God made me really exam my heart and reflect. I want to share the story with you all so that maybe, He'd do the same on your lives and make you realize what an awesome God we have for giving us a beautiful Savior.
Luke 2:1-20
The Birth of Jesus
1 In those days Caesar Augustus issued a decree that a census should be taken of the entire Roman world. 2 (This was the first census that took place while[a] Quirinius was governor of Syria.) 3 And everyone went to their own town to register.
4 So Joseph also went up from the town of Nazareth in Galilee to Judea, to Bethlehem the town of David, because he belonged to the house and line of David. 5 He went there to register with Mary, who was pledged to be married to him and was expecting a child. 6 While they were there, the time came for the baby to be born, 7 and she gave birth to her firstborn, a son. She wrapped him in cloths and placed him in a manger, because there was no guest room available for them.
8 And there were shepherds living out in the fields nearby, keeping watch over their flocks at night. 9 An angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were terrified. 10 But the angel said to them, “Do not be afraid. I bring you good news that will cause great joy for all the people. 11 Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is the Messiah, the Lord. 12 This will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in cloths and lying in a manger.”
13 Suddenly a great company of the heavenly host appeared with the angel, praising God and saying,
14 “Glory to God in the highest heaven,
and on earth peace to those on whom his favor rests.”
15 When the angels had left them and gone into heaven, the shepherds said to one another, “Let’s go to Bethlehem and see this thing that has happened, which the Lord has told us about.”
16 So they hurried off and found Mary and Joseph, and the baby, who was lying in the manger. 17 When they had seen him, they spread the word concerning what had been told them about this child, 18 and all who heard it were amazed at what the shepherds said to them. 19 But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart. 20 The shepherds returned, glorifying and praising God for all the things they had heard and seen, which were just as they had been told.
I think what is so cool is God has chosen a woman, Mary who suffered from many things such as not a high self esteem and was a virgin, and no matter the hardships she praised God...He chose her for such a task to give birth to the Savior of the world. How cool! Then He has chosen the shepherds; the lame of the town of David to hear of the message of a Savior is born, to spread that news and to VISIT the Savior in the manger! Then the wise men come to give gifts, then the angels are praising! How awesome. I love that God has chosen the one who struggle or who aren't noticed, but give God all this praise the most to bear such awesome news or give birth to a Savior because they didn't have all the attention. Still, they continued to NOT have all the attention despite what was going on from God! What is cool, Jesus was mentioned back in Genesis and God spoke of a Savior from the very beginning of creation.
How awesome. God never ceases to amaze me as a follower of Christ because His word is peace to my heart in knowing of the promise He has made for me. :)
I pray that this Christmas season that God will put peace in your hearts knowing that there has been a birth of a Savior and He is to return to us. Also knowing that He did indeed die for our sins on that cross on Calvary. I pray that all of you will come to realize that Jesus is the true gift on Christmas and in the season of Christmas all of us will realize what is truly important in the season opposed to just opening gifts, receiving, and giving the gifts. That we will feel compelled to share the story of Jesus's birth with anyone and everyone this season and the seasons to come of Christmas and anytime of the year.
I pray blessings to you, your families, and friends this Christmas season and upcoming New Year.
Happy Christmas!
Merry New Year! :D
Sincerely,
Mak Attack
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Friday, December 24, 2010
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
To be...or not to be....a good idea?
Well, I have come to really think that, maybe it's a good idea that I attempt to graduate in 3-3 1/2 years.
Think about it.
Taking summer classes of general eds while my semesters will be not as compacted.
It'll make life easier...
Cheaper finances, too...I hope. I can only pray and trust that God will provide and He will be glorified according to His will, not my own.
I can only pray that through everything and anything us as God's chosen people will remain strong in Him and keep praising Him for all that we endure.
Lord, if it is in your will for me to graduate in the number of years of which I think would be right...so be it, but if not, then that's okay, too. I will continuously praise His name and what it is worth.
I do believe that...through God..everything will be just spiffy and dandy. :)
Blessings on your journey in the faith of light and dark
-Mak
Think about it.
Taking summer classes of general eds while my semesters will be not as compacted.
It'll make life easier...
Cheaper finances, too...I hope. I can only pray and trust that God will provide and He will be glorified according to His will, not my own.
I can only pray that through everything and anything us as God's chosen people will remain strong in Him and keep praising Him for all that we endure.
Lord, if it is in your will for me to graduate in the number of years of which I think would be right...so be it, but if not, then that's okay, too. I will continuously praise His name and what it is worth.
I do believe that...through God..everything will be just spiffy and dandy. :)
Blessings on your journey in the faith of light and dark
-Mak
God works through those when facing struggles...
I just finished watching this youtube video and it was Mark Brown doing a small passage on Luke 1.
In Luke 1, Mary praises the Lord and is willing whenever she encounters the angel knowing she is will be the one to change the world for whenever she gives birth to Jesus who really changes lives, and turns people to God, sharing God's word and love.
Mary is an unmarried and depressed woman who will soon have to barren a child, but facing all these struggles she says:
Luke 1: 47-55 'Mary's Song'
"And Mary said:
My soul glorifies the Lord and my spirit rejoices in God my Savior, for he has been mindful of the humble state of his servant. From now on all generations will call me blessed, for the Mighty One has done great things for me--holy is his name. His mercy extends to those who fear him, from generation to generation. He has performed mighty deeds with his arm; he has scattered those who are proud in their thoughts. He has brought down rulers from their thrones but has lifted up the humble. He has filled the hungry with good things but has sent the rich away empty. He has helped his servant Israel, remembering to be merciful to Abraham and his descendants forever, even as he said to our fathers."
Despite the fact Mary struggled and was depressed, she still sang praises to her God because she knew that trusting in God would bring peace to her heart no matter what she would endure.
She would persevere throughout the struggles of life and be blessed by God for the glory of His will. She trusted the angel and put faith in the unseen, by this she became blessed by God. God used Mary, the struggler to do great things in the world. God could have chosen another woman to give birth to the Savior of the world, but He didn't! He has chosen Mary, the depressed and struggling woman who had faith.
I think that just like her, us who struggle the same, or differently, but still struggle will be used for the glory of God and God will use us during those times to speak out to others in need and to inspire to do greater things for God, one another, and to serve Him.
God works through those who struggle to do great things. These great things can be small or big, either way they will be significant in the eyes of God.
I pray that whatever struggle you may encounter in your life, or are encountering now, that God will use you for the better and that God will work through you in wonderful ways. I also pray for healing and peace to be with you. I pray that God blesses your journey of light and dark, just as mine.
In Christ's name I pray this,
Amen
-Peace be with you and I pray that you never lose the strength to pray or keep praising God no matter what situation you're in. God is always there.
-Mak
In Luke 1, Mary praises the Lord and is willing whenever she encounters the angel knowing she is will be the one to change the world for whenever she gives birth to Jesus who really changes lives, and turns people to God, sharing God's word and love.
Mary is an unmarried and depressed woman who will soon have to barren a child, but facing all these struggles she says:
Luke 1: 47-55 'Mary's Song'
"And Mary said:
My soul glorifies the Lord and my spirit rejoices in God my Savior, for he has been mindful of the humble state of his servant. From now on all generations will call me blessed, for the Mighty One has done great things for me--holy is his name. His mercy extends to those who fear him, from generation to generation. He has performed mighty deeds with his arm; he has scattered those who are proud in their thoughts. He has brought down rulers from their thrones but has lifted up the humble. He has filled the hungry with good things but has sent the rich away empty. He has helped his servant Israel, remembering to be merciful to Abraham and his descendants forever, even as he said to our fathers."
Despite the fact Mary struggled and was depressed, she still sang praises to her God because she knew that trusting in God would bring peace to her heart no matter what she would endure.
She would persevere throughout the struggles of life and be blessed by God for the glory of His will. She trusted the angel and put faith in the unseen, by this she became blessed by God. God used Mary, the struggler to do great things in the world. God could have chosen another woman to give birth to the Savior of the world, but He didn't! He has chosen Mary, the depressed and struggling woman who had faith.
I think that just like her, us who struggle the same, or differently, but still struggle will be used for the glory of God and God will use us during those times to speak out to others in need and to inspire to do greater things for God, one another, and to serve Him.
God works through those who struggle to do great things. These great things can be small or big, either way they will be significant in the eyes of God.
I pray that whatever struggle you may encounter in your life, or are encountering now, that God will use you for the better and that God will work through you in wonderful ways. I also pray for healing and peace to be with you. I pray that God blesses your journey of light and dark, just as mine.
In Christ's name I pray this,
Amen
-Peace be with you and I pray that you never lose the strength to pray or keep praising God no matter what situation you're in. God is always there.
-Mak
The house...is wrapped in disrepair...
It is mechanical.
The normal vernacular it circulates...the wires...
won't burn out.
I see more burn outs in my days that I've come around.
The wind is cold, wrapped in a disappearing silence
Walk away to burn out once more
Keep it circulating, it won't ever change.
It's a vernacular...it wires me down
Cold! Warm! Come crisp as you are!
Burn out. Cold.
Circulate the vernacular with the cold wires that wind you down, burden me...
I see the ghost in you, white as ever. Fading.
It isn't a surprise, it's a burn out I'm told. Too cold to be retold.
It's still cold, and I'm retelling the same old story.
Maybe I'm the burn out, and you're the crisped wire that I carry the burden of?
Or is it that you're the burn out, who is cold and I carry all the burdens of?
No matter.
It's a circulating wire through the vernacular that is cold and a burn out that I shall forever carry the burden of.
I was once the one who told the story of the cold hearted and how it circulated through the lives who couldn't live up.
Maybe I am just there. Maybe..that's the way I'll be seen.
No! I'll be the story teller to change the heart of all story tellers and of the warm hearted.
Warm and cold, a burn out is. A burn out is once warm, once cold, circulating in the life that couldn't escape the vernacular of....
questioning the sun and the moon...
It is mechanical.
The normal vernacular it circulates...the wires...
won't burn out.
I see more burn outs in my days that I've come around.
The wind is cold, wrapped in a disappearing silence
Walk away to burn out once more
Keep it circulating, it won't ever change.
It's a vernacular...it wires me down
Cold! Warm! Come crisp as you are!
Burn out. Cold.
Circulate the vernacular with the cold wires that wind you down, burden me...
I see the ghost in you, white as ever. Fading.
It isn't a surprise, it's a burn out I'm told. Too cold to be retold.
It's still cold, and I'm retelling the same old story.
Maybe I'm the burn out, and you're the crisped wire that I carry the burden of?
Or is it that you're the burn out, who is cold and I carry all the burdens of?
No matter.
It's a circulating wire through the vernacular that is cold and a burn out that I shall forever carry the burden of.
I was once the one who told the story of the cold hearted and how it circulated through the lives who couldn't live up.
Maybe I am just there. Maybe..that's the way I'll be seen.
No! I'll be the story teller to change the heart of all story tellers and of the warm hearted.
Warm and cold, a burn out is. A burn out is once warm, once cold, circulating in the life that couldn't escape the vernacular of....
questioning the sun and the moon...
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
It's Nintendo Tuesday....
Happy Nintendo Tuesday! Tell all your friends! :D
It has been exactly 1 week since I have left college to come home. I feel as if it has been actually a longer time opposed to just a week. Is that weird? I think it is.
In the week I do believe I've accomplished maybe a few things; reflection, prayer, coming to really sit down with myself and just...exam my heart and how I've been as a disciple.
It's been, well, I think successful in those areas to at least try to take care of myself spiritually.
Speaking of spirituality, my friend Mr. Olmstead, who is my friend Matt's dad, he would teach the Sunday Bible study classes for Sr. High youth, well, that is before I left...anyways, he is the only one from the church who really bothered to ask how I was doing spiritually. He asked me that after church this past Sunday. I really wasn't sure how to answer it. I've never been asked that.
That question really...bothered me. I knew I wasn't great, but I was okay. I was..."surviving" simply. I don't want to be just "surviving" whatsoever.
I told Mr. Olmstead that I was just okay, and that I've had my fair share of up and downsides with the journey of faith because I feel that me going to college is just God telling me I can either step it up a notch or stand there while everyone else is actually leveling up to see Him more and more each day opposed to just sinking. I said it was just..a trial I was facing that wasn't the easiest and I was attempting to cope. Not sure of how to really cope except the basics of to keep praying, and seeking God for wisdom because really I don't see what else I could do.
In an email I had received from him before coming home, he told me to keep praying. No reason behind what he said, but he mentioned it. The time I read that, I really did need to hear it.
Realistically here, I have my share of doubts in life, and whenever I do...God is always there to remind me in several ways why I shouldn't doubt what is going on now, why I have been blessed the way I have been.
I have always been that one person to shut out the better things in life once I have received them graciously...such as friendships, a relationship, money, anything really. Anything great, I have brought myself to this point where I would go with it and then feel a build up of fear that something evil would arise within that certain friendship, relationship, or whatever it may be....that is because I fear being hurt.
I fear being hurt because I've been hurt too many times and I know I've grown emotionally/mentally stronger from it all that I have ever endured, but sometimes I just become afraid it'll happen all over again.
Maybe it takes true love to fear, and true fear to love. No love is right without a fear of it. You must be courageous to love. It's okay to have fear. It's okay to love, and to be loved.
I am learning more and more everyday to accept that.
To love is being courageous, because it takes the strong to really show the love that the weak could not bear to show.
To possess wisdom is to speak without fear of knowing one may be wrong or right. To accept correction is to accept a lesson in life.
To share the laughter and tears is to share the happiness and sadness that life brings, but those are the true blessings that bring us to our knees and become humbled in the life we are graciously given.
I may never know what it is truly like to live life to it's fullest, but I do believe that once I do really endure such a moment, I'll be sure to thank God for it. I wouldn't be able to do it on my own.
The blessings in my life are significant to me. God has blessed me in so many ways beyond imaginable by giving me a great family that I may not always show affection and love towards, nor do I always get a long with them, but deep in my heart I'd do anything for anyone of them. I love them so dearly. They're my life. I have a hard time showing that, but I try.
My friends, they're wonderful. I...am not sure where I would be without any of them. If it weren't for my friends, I wouldn't have gone to church to find God, nor would I have met all the people I would have at church. My friends at home and some in college make sacrifices for me beyond belief. I wish I could thank them in such spectacular ways, but I am not sure how to show how truly thankful I am for each and every single person and their ability to show me such fruit of the spirit. These people are like family and I appreciate every single friend of mine that God has blessed me with. Thank God.
My boyfriend, he really is a fantastic blessing and guy to me. God...really has blessed me with a wonderful man. A man of faith and intelligence. We have an immense amount of the same interests. I think the one thing that attracts me most to Sam is the fact he has faith in God, struggles the same way as I do, but is able to share faith with me, and discuss his thoughts with me. He trusts me enough to do that. I really appreciate such an aspect because I don't think I've gained such trust from a boyfriend I have ever had. I enjoy the fact I am allowed to guide him, too and we are able to pray for each other. That is so significant to me. I have thanked God so many times for such an aspect of the relationship to be present because to have a man of faith to share faith with you is the greatest feeling ever.
What is also wonderful is he is a guy who can just...makes me laugh, smile, and makes me feel great about anything and everything. No matter if I am frustrated about something, he is there to comfort. How awesome...
I think what God has really done for Sam and I is to help us both realize it is okay to be loved, to feel accepted, and to grow in the faith in wisdom, love, integrity, and patience with one another. We share all these interests and emotions together that are similar that sometimes I wonder if I am actually dreaming and feel I need to pinch myself, but I am reminded, he is here because God placed Sam in my life for a reason, just as I was placed in his.
To be placed in someone's life is really a blessing because we learn from one another, and I've learned not only from Sam, but friends I've made, or kept.
God is really awesome like that and I don't thank Him enough for what great, loving people He has placed in my life because without them, I am not sure what all would have helped shape me today.
Therefore, Lord, I thank you for all the great and loving people you have placed in my life. I thank you for all the blessings as well. Everything from you is a blessing whether it is good or bad at times because I know from them all I learn something new from You, through that, I consider a true blessing.
Praises be to You.
Amen.
Psalm 116: 5-6 "The Lord is gracious and righteous; our God is full of compassion. The Lord protects the simple hearted; when I was in great need he saved me."
I want to show the love that God has for me.
This morning I awakened with more thoughts rambling on throughout my mind, like children riding a ferris wheel, screaming...
I had to write what has been irking me for awhile.
In my journey of faith, I've come to learn that being in college it's definitely a growth of finding trust in people and seeing, who really is your friend and who isn't.
I've learned the hard way and the unnecessary way.
It's kind of sad really. I'm usually one to be so open hearted to anyone, but for some odd reason I decided to really...watch my heart closely and see who I'd open up to, etc. Do I feel it is a good thing that I decided to not be so open? yes and no.
Yes and no, because if you're so closed you'll be harsh on subjects with people and kept to yourself. Unless, I am learning to actually see what it is of this, "being kept to self" and "protecting the heart" stuff really is being that I never took the time to do it all.
I never took the time to do it all at times in my life because I always chose to be really friendly with people despite, I did grow up very shy, quiet, and timid. I never knew...I would grow up to be more of a conversationist, but I did.
I really hate that I did on so many levels...
why?
I talk a good bit. No, not the normal conversation of "hey" "hey" blah blah blah...
It's the gossip factor.
Before coming into college, I never really was exposed to the high levels of different personalities that would be out in the world, because of this, I was really disciplining myself to just...not talk about anyone. Anytime a gossip factor came up, I stopped it and walked away.
Where did that discipline ever go?! I really hate the fact I've lost that discipline. I don't know if it's me simply venting or gossiping anymore, but I'm pretty sure it's gossiping if I call someone a bitch or an asshole and describe the fact of what I didn't like of what they had done, and how it affected me.
How selfish....where did my heart ever really go to think of just myself opposed to others even when I may not be their number 1 fan?
My point is, I've met the spectrum of ALL different personalities on campus. Given, it's a good thing. This is a trial I am sure that God has given me because He is telling me, I want you to step up in your faith and relationship with me. Let's notch it up a bit...
I couldn't take it though, because temptation found the best of me.
That, I know God is the proudest of, but He forgives and still loves me for me. He knows in my heart that I am trying to make it good and loving towards humanity like I've always would have wanted it to be...scratch that, I'm mending my heart to be like Christ's..because God would want it to be....I'm doing this for HIM, not me.
I've sat there in complete angst, selfishness, ignorance, and I've used slander about...a sister of mine...my roommate. Do I really like her?
Honestly, after living with her for a bit, a few things annoyed me, but I liked her because we all are different.
I attempted to get along with her and I felt...she just brushed me off as if I never existed.
I read in her one blog that she hated me and said, "fuck you."
That...I think is what caused me to go over the edge because it hurt...angered me, and she had these pathetic, immature drawings of my boyfriend and I out of pen saying how we apparently are annoying and what not. She drew 2 of them? It doesn't matter, I read them and I kind of laughed because it was really immature for an almost 20 year old. It reminded me of elementary school gestures, but whatever.
I think I was being a little defensive inside because it's really never of her business what I do with my life, nor does she have the right to sit there and make fun of people who don't do anything to her.
What's funny is I'd sit there and be nice to her the entire time, attempt conversations, everything. I bought pizza and offered her my mt dew and some pizza...she took it. Thanked me, but she never does any of that.
I feel..used when it comes to her. It's like...anything to level up.
My point is...she has disrespected me and I don't appreciate that. That is what has caused me to gossip about her to say how I think she's a bitch. Really, my roommate isn't a bitch. I think I am just being selfish and not showing love.
I was not selfish and did show love for awhile, never worked. Maybe I lost faith in that and decided to go to the dark side and be a bitch back? Yeah..pretty much. I figured, "oh taste of her own medicine" "let's actually start sticking up for myself" because...all my life I have been this pushover. I am a push over. I know I am, don't need to tell me anymore than what I've heard. My dad is CONSTANTLY telling me about it. I get it. I've heard, now shut up. Let me handle things myself. I am an adult. I'll come to you when I actually need it, and I have.
I hate myself for that. I hate myself for ever treating her wrong, gossiping about her, all the complaining, harsh thoughts, and grudges within my heart that I've had towards her. I really want to fix my heart, my relationship with Janel.
I would like a friendship with her. I may not always agree with her, but I really want to have something with her. She is a pretty cool and interesting person to talk to, well can be at times.
I may not be knowledgeable of everything she likes, but doesn't mean I couldn't still be a listener.
I want to love her with all my heart, and show love to all those who I wouldn't normally want to show it towards. I want to show God's love to all of humanity. I want to love like I've never loved before.
I will never know what love is until God has taught me all about His love and the fact that He is love. Until then, I am unloving towards the ones I bare not to show that very love.
Lord,
Help me to show the love you want me to show of Your great unfailing love to all those people who I may not always get along with, or even have befriended. I will pray fervently that God, to help me let this all go, break it all down to where it alys with me no longer because I can not carry the burdens on any longer. I need Your love, gracious forgiveness. I thank You for it all. I thank You for having me face no more than what I could not bear, that is a blessing. Give me the strength and endurance to show love to all Your people, all of my brothers and sisters, we need the love. Love is the answer. Help us to realize this. Thank You for Your unfailing love, it is the love that truly does cure. Amen.
Matthew 22: 37-39 "Jesus replied: "Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is is like it: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.'
To show love is the challenge I am willing to take. It will be a hard road in front of me, but I really am trusting in God to give me the guidance I need to do this commandment. If I fail, I need to get right back up again and pray to the Lord for His love and forgiveness, giving me strength because it is the only thing I can do.
I trust that God will guide His people to love to fix relationships with all people, resolve anything that may be going on lives, and give patience for these.
God is Love and He is the answer to life.
Blessings and perseverance be with you and your journey in faith both in the fight of light and darkness, just as mine.
Sincerely,
-Mak
Monday, December 20, 2010
the Messes of Men: The struggle I see before my eyes in faith.
Many thoughts to share...
We live in a world full of sin. Right? Right. It is often that I see of the ones I love so dearly claiming of how much they have this "faith" in God and yet, they're putting all this faith in the lottery, items that they clearly do not need, or hoping for dreams that are unrealistic. (No, I am not pessimistic, I just know when it is time to be realistic opposed to dreaming.) It is sad.
People waste their money and are putting all that faith, hope, and dreams in something that doesn't last, when our God endures FOREVER. His love endures forever.
God has promised us that He will provide everything; food, water, to clothe us, and everything else. I understand that money may be important, but wouldn't you think that having a God who takes care of you and eternal life is much more important? I would think so, but I also understand not everyone thinks the same way as I do.
It never really occurred to me how much the fact someone is wasting faith and everything they could ever really need or want on the lottery...whenever my Uncle, Dad, Gramma Zosh, and I had gone to Giant Eagle after eating breakfast.
Before leaving, my Uncle Kurt played the lottery. My Dad had made the comment of, "Hopefully we'll get some money this time, more than $1 or $5" It clicked. SERIOUSLY?! You're putting all your hopes and faith into the lottery instead of trusting in the God that will provide for you?!
I made the comment of how I thought it was a waste of money. Realistically and logically thinking, if you do the math, a person will most likely spend MORE money playing the lottery opposed to actually winning it. What. a. waste. I said, "You're Christian right? If you have any faith, you would not be playing the lottery putting faith there. You should be putting your faith in God in knowing He will provide for you. He has alternatives of how He will provide. Mysterious, yes. You will not always know when or how, nor where, but that is the mystery behind God, as well. It is a build of trust with God in your relationship with him. Are you willing to break that conformity?" Never a reply. I didn't expect anything.
Just a sigh. I wasn't trying to be rude. I was trying to provoke a thought in the mind...because I am so sick of hearing how my family can't afford anything, but yet oneself in my family can afford to play the lottery...
Can you? If you can, tell me how you're paying for your bills, food, and everything else...as well. I would like to know. If you can't afford those, you can't afford the lottery. Stop playing it, it's a waste of your time, and stepping down on your relationship and faith in the God that takes care of you.
You know it.
God, have them realize what these people are doing with their faith. It is vital. I know I have wasted my money on meaningless items and in places as well, but the lottery is a plague that plagues the world so rigorously. It's a roaring demon. Guide these people of Your's Lord, because You love us, freely. You are willing to guide us. Help us to realize that sin and You are two choices that we can freely make...help us...to make the right one; You, and only You, God. I pray this because it eats at me. This is the battle of light and dark in the world in faith. Help us be beacons of light in the world of dark, O, God. You're the light...shine down. Thank you for all the blessings You provide in our lives, even in my life. I don't always thank You, and I can't always thank You enough because You do more than I could ever imagine. God, You're truly amazing.
Thank you. Amen to the God on Highest.
PS. I hope that none of you take offense to this blog of mine. It's surely -my- outlook. I do not care what anyone does personally with their money matters, I just want them to realize what they may be doing logically and do it with faith, not out of a conformity or anything of sinful nature. It is easy to fall into those tracks.
2nd Corinthians 4:13-18 "It is written: "I believed; therefore I have spoken." With the same spirit of faith we also believe and therefore speak, because we know that the one who raised the Lord Jesus from the dead will also raise us with Jesus and present us with you in his presence. All this is for your benefit, so that the grace that is reaching more and more people may cause thanksgiving to overflow to the glory of God. Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal."
The glorious unseen...putting faith into the glorious unseen is the step we are to take. Are you willing to do it?
Let's do it together, in faith, in love. God is Love.
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