Angered and Grace Filled Poetics By: Makaya Hicks
References: Books of Ezekiel, Matthew, Psalms, the Bible itself.
Is it worth it?
Is it worth the fact I feel ever so angered
Filled within my own hands
Forevermore gone
Not so...factual anymore
Here it goes, nothing....
Anything can change this..
For I, am the only one
Pathetic right now, but yet
I disgress.
Time and time goes on
filled my eyes
watch the clock
ticking
newsprint read for all those days
Not so....factual anymore...
Here it goes, nothing
Anything can change this..
For I, am the only one
Concerned right now, but yet
I disgress.
Questioned, non answered
holding back
unopened, folded
painted dark, un-neutralized
Not so...factual anymore....
Here it goes, nothing
Anything can change this..
For I, am the only one
Willing right now, but yet
I disgress.
Corrosive, forevermore like the Raven
It's all holding me down in the chains of darkness
Your hand, it reached out
I reached
Your light it guides me, out of this dungeon for I am with held upon
The light
the stronghold for whom shall I be afraid?
When He is here to guide me.
The Raven it devours, but yet I will still say "For whom shallth I be afraid, for the man with four faces and four wings is right beside me with His glory!"
For the Raven had then backed away, and disappeared away with the vile demons.
A lightning storm came, with the man with the four faces and the four wings, the glory of God was bestowed before thyself, for I was not ashamed.
Grace upon....
Reigning over the land, merciful
It is a glorious forever seen Yahweh
It is factual
It is believable
It is faith
It is your mercy that was shown upon, thyself
The child had come before her Lord, asking for forgiveness. She was aware of the blood that was shed of the Lord on the cross.
Jesus called out to her, like a child before herself, standing and spoketh these words, "I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of Heaven. Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of Heaven."
I left forgiven, humbled, and forevermore remembering, Love the Lord your God, humble thyself.
Monday, November 14, 2011
Colly Strings-Poem
Colly strings, oh how I've been pulled by each string imaginable this past awhile. Where are you taking me?
To the darkness where I aly myself a tomb,
bury the bones,
narrow in,
narrow out
look into thy tunnel til I see the light of this revelation.
A revelation, that is what I have sat here under this tree to yearn for.
Is it shining through, or is it ceasing away from the grip of my very hand?
The hand is filled with black grease,
the grease of your oil, the oil that slips through every vein of forbid.
Forbidden to foresee everything that I could become,
yet to have it given back to me.
I have reached the revelation for it has been received in grace,
not forbidden when once thought otherwise, for I was, the one...
walking away from you.
Pacing to see the light,
colly strings could you take me along the lines to success?
Colly strings could you see me through? See me, don't forget me.
I'm not walking away anymore, I'm facing the lines of colly.
To the darkness where I aly myself a tomb,
bury the bones,
narrow in,
narrow out
look into thy tunnel til I see the light of this revelation.
A revelation, that is what I have sat here under this tree to yearn for.
Is it shining through, or is it ceasing away from the grip of my very hand?
The hand is filled with black grease,
the grease of your oil, the oil that slips through every vein of forbid.
Forbidden to foresee everything that I could become,
yet to have it given back to me.
I have reached the revelation for it has been received in grace,
not forbidden when once thought otherwise, for I was, the one...
walking away from you.
Pacing to see the light,
colly strings could you take me along the lines to success?
Colly strings could you see me through? See me, don't forget me.
I'm not walking away anymore, I'm facing the lines of colly.
Sunday, November 13, 2011
It's got me thinking....
Lately,
I've been experiencing a lot of friends talking to me about relationships and it's got me thinking...
what I would want someone.
It's not often that I really thinking about that certain someone that's out there...
but I really want to write about this because deep down, I will confess...
Yes, I think about this subject a lot more than what I express because
I don't want to show that I am weak, but rather strong.
I find it a temptation to want someone here by my side in the journey of faith and life...I don't want to forget that God is the ultimate one who gives me strength in the journey and He walks with me.
I sometimes forget that God wired me a certain way, but when I do remember, I am forevermore thankful because I stand out from all else.
Well, what I guess that I am trying to explain is...whenever I have guys talking to me about other girls...it makes me wonder what I don't have that they're not seeing in me
or what do I have that would do them well?
What is it that some women have that I don't...and they get a guy?
-I am not saying that I am desperate, because certainly, I am not. I just have my thoughts-
What am I talking about...I stand out so much that..a guy would be an idiot to pass me up.
I am a great person.
-I am not saying this to be egotistical, but I am being honest-
I am confident.
I am intelligent, witty, funny, awkward (sometimes...well..all the time)
I am firm in what I believe in.
Honest, blunt, forward, realistic, idealistic, logical, analytical
outgoing...
loving, compassionate, sentimental (don't always show that)...
I don't know why I am even writing about this---
I get frustrated because I hear about my friends who get treated so poorly or NOT good enough OR get treated with what they DESERVE...
and it makes me wonder...what if I was that person...to treat them like they were worth something..
with value, respect, love, trust, honesty, and never holding back to do what is right for them, holding them accountable...
letting them know that they can trust and have faith in me.
I am not the type of person to treat a person poorly (anyone for that matter), it just isn't in my character.
It's just..I get frustrated whenever I'm viewed as the, "best friend", "bro", "friend who games and shares all things inside nerd with..."
I've gotten friends jokingly say, "Makaya-forever alone" I laugh at that...but sometimes I'm like, "okay, seriously...not cool man.." because I know that I am not forever alone.
Maybe single for a long time..which I have no problem with really being single because yes, I am independent...
but there are moments where I think it'd be nice to date or be in a relationship that is worth it.
I don't look to be involved for just no reason, or out of being lonely, bored, etc.
I look to be in a relationship of value and worth between that guy and myself.
To share something significant.
To share the faith in God and in one another.
I take relationships and dating very seriously. I am not saying that I am picky, but I can be. I want to date someone that I feel is very potential for something beneficial and greater for the both of us. I want to find and share faith that betters us both in the heart, not to harm nor tear down.
I've had guys be interested in me, but I didn't feel the same way because it wasn't that I didn't value them, it's due to the fact I felt simply God didn't lead me that direction.
And, honestly, because I didn't feel a special something between me and that guy.
I've had TONS of friendships where yeah, we definitely got a long and all...but..
you always know there is something special with that one person whenever you can literally just express yourself in ways that you've never done before, talk to them about anything and everything...(even if it's..personal, that means so much), share interests, beliefs, and
definitely be able to openly joke with one another..and know that it's because you're such awesome friends to do it.
...
Just now thinking of this..
it's always really weird whenever your own parent considers introducing you to another person to potentially go out with...
I'll never pursue that.
Friendship, yes.
Relationship, NO.
Lesson: Never date someone you haven't known for a long time OR aren't significantly close with BECAUSE it could cause a good friendship to end OR you'll learn things about one another TOO quick..which can end...something that could have been good future wise...
or you just learn you're really opposite and it can't work out...
I have my own standards that I look for in someone, but I take notice to the littlest things about a person and put those into consideration.
I'm very observant and a good listener.
I notice habits fast and I remember the littlest likes/dislikes, generally, facts about a person. I even remember conversations quite well.
Because I take everything into consideration and value the good things in a person.
I notice the flaws, but I don't consider them to be affecting of what I find admirable in a person's heart.
I see past everything because I know that no one is perfect.
I guess, I am yearning to share...something with that person because I won't lie, I want to so badly to just express how much respect, value, admiration, and so much more with that person.
I find meaning in the little things of life to be great...
Valuing what is important.
I am one to value a person for their heart, not what they have done.
One day, I know that God will lead that right person for me to me, and me to him.
I don't fail to believe that.
I just want that one person to know whoever they are,
they're so much more and their heart is what I notice the most.
God loves that person very much.
And I hope to be someone they can depend on, share their heart and faith in God with, share interests, share the hardships with me so that I can help them be strong and help hold them up,
to have faith in me because I won't back down nor leave.
To share respect and love.
To find something more in one another that can be used for the good and beneficial.
To open each other's eyes to the unseen and to know that it's okay and not to fear.
To share what God wanted us to share...
I'm very caring and loving, and I don't always know how to express that...I express myself better with small gestures and words on paper because I feel those have more meaning besides the 3 words said between two people.
I feel that me praying for that someone shows that I do value and love that person.
I strongly feel that me just showing that I actually care about the little and big things in a person..
and holding them accountable...shows that I love and care about them...because I value the well being of a person.
I am not into the materialistic type of relationship.
I am into the Godly type. The type that God wanted us to have with one another.
-am rambling...ergh-
I really wanted this to be organized in a fashion that makes it understandable and...just...I don't even know..good? Good in showing that I am very honest in what I feel and want...I am very real about what is on my heart and mind, all of my feelings...---
I don't doubt that I'll have a Godly, loving, healthy relationship one day...
I just..wonder...when? Ya know?
I don't want to show you that I am weak..because I am not. I am strong in my independence.
Yet, I do say that I am human...and I can't stop these thoughts and feelings arise from time to time..
because every human wants to be loved and cared for...to mutually share everything with that one person and feel something..nice..
It's rare for the general people to have a healthy relationship anymore and that is sad...
It breaks my heart in that sense...but I feel, the broken hearted can always be mended to be greater, stronger, and be of a love that is so deep and intricate..it'll be inspirational.
Whoever you may be, good Sir...
I'm sure that you're awesome and are worth my time, love, respect, and care.
I wish nothing, but happiness for all those couples, singles..and...friendships. :)
To find happiness in one person is a challenge, but there is hope..
because God gives us that hope. Hope in a better heart shared. I admire God for such a gift of love. Praises be to Him.
Btw, dear good Sir...
You might find it a good value you to know that...I love God, Star Wars, Star Trek,
video games, sarcasm, humor, reading, writing, artsy things, and
I do love hockey.
I hate chick flicks...they're too much for me..
and one word for you, "derp."
If we share something purely awesome..that means...we shall be purely awesome together.
The End of all rants of relationships, lovey dovey stuff..and the "like" of such.
-awkward penguin-
I've been experiencing a lot of friends talking to me about relationships and it's got me thinking...
what I would want someone.
It's not often that I really thinking about that certain someone that's out there...
but I really want to write about this because deep down, I will confess...
Yes, I think about this subject a lot more than what I express because
I don't want to show that I am weak, but rather strong.
I find it a temptation to want someone here by my side in the journey of faith and life...I don't want to forget that God is the ultimate one who gives me strength in the journey and He walks with me.
I sometimes forget that God wired me a certain way, but when I do remember, I am forevermore thankful because I stand out from all else.
Well, what I guess that I am trying to explain is...whenever I have guys talking to me about other girls...it makes me wonder what I don't have that they're not seeing in me
or what do I have that would do them well?
What is it that some women have that I don't...and they get a guy?
-I am not saying that I am desperate, because certainly, I am not. I just have my thoughts-
What am I talking about...I stand out so much that..a guy would be an idiot to pass me up.
I am a great person.
-I am not saying this to be egotistical, but I am being honest-
I am confident.
I am intelligent, witty, funny, awkward (sometimes...well..all the time)
I am firm in what I believe in.
Honest, blunt, forward, realistic, idealistic, logical, analytical
outgoing...
loving, compassionate, sentimental (don't always show that)...
I don't know why I am even writing about this---
I get frustrated because I hear about my friends who get treated so poorly or NOT good enough OR get treated with what they DESERVE...
and it makes me wonder...what if I was that person...to treat them like they were worth something..
with value, respect, love, trust, honesty, and never holding back to do what is right for them, holding them accountable...
letting them know that they can trust and have faith in me.
I am not the type of person to treat a person poorly (anyone for that matter), it just isn't in my character.
It's just..I get frustrated whenever I'm viewed as the, "best friend", "bro", "friend who games and shares all things inside nerd with..."
I've gotten friends jokingly say, "Makaya-forever alone" I laugh at that...but sometimes I'm like, "okay, seriously...not cool man.." because I know that I am not forever alone.
Maybe single for a long time..which I have no problem with really being single because yes, I am independent...
but there are moments where I think it'd be nice to date or be in a relationship that is worth it.
I don't look to be involved for just no reason, or out of being lonely, bored, etc.
I look to be in a relationship of value and worth between that guy and myself.
To share something significant.
To share the faith in God and in one another.
I take relationships and dating very seriously. I am not saying that I am picky, but I can be. I want to date someone that I feel is very potential for something beneficial and greater for the both of us. I want to find and share faith that betters us both in the heart, not to harm nor tear down.
I've had guys be interested in me, but I didn't feel the same way because it wasn't that I didn't value them, it's due to the fact I felt simply God didn't lead me that direction.
And, honestly, because I didn't feel a special something between me and that guy.
I've had TONS of friendships where yeah, we definitely got a long and all...but..
you always know there is something special with that one person whenever you can literally just express yourself in ways that you've never done before, talk to them about anything and everything...(even if it's..personal, that means so much), share interests, beliefs, and
definitely be able to openly joke with one another..and know that it's because you're such awesome friends to do it.
...
Just now thinking of this..
it's always really weird whenever your own parent considers introducing you to another person to potentially go out with...
I'll never pursue that.
Friendship, yes.
Relationship, NO.
Lesson: Never date someone you haven't known for a long time OR aren't significantly close with BECAUSE it could cause a good friendship to end OR you'll learn things about one another TOO quick..which can end...something that could have been good future wise...
or you just learn you're really opposite and it can't work out...
I have my own standards that I look for in someone, but I take notice to the littlest things about a person and put those into consideration.
I'm very observant and a good listener.
I notice habits fast and I remember the littlest likes/dislikes, generally, facts about a person. I even remember conversations quite well.
Because I take everything into consideration and value the good things in a person.
I notice the flaws, but I don't consider them to be affecting of what I find admirable in a person's heart.
I see past everything because I know that no one is perfect.
I guess, I am yearning to share...something with that person because I won't lie, I want to so badly to just express how much respect, value, admiration, and so much more with that person.
I find meaning in the little things of life to be great...
Valuing what is important.
I am one to value a person for their heart, not what they have done.
One day, I know that God will lead that right person for me to me, and me to him.
I don't fail to believe that.
I just want that one person to know whoever they are,
they're so much more and their heart is what I notice the most.
God loves that person very much.
And I hope to be someone they can depend on, share their heart and faith in God with, share interests, share the hardships with me so that I can help them be strong and help hold them up,
to have faith in me because I won't back down nor leave.
To share respect and love.
To find something more in one another that can be used for the good and beneficial.
To open each other's eyes to the unseen and to know that it's okay and not to fear.
To share what God wanted us to share...
I'm very caring and loving, and I don't always know how to express that...I express myself better with small gestures and words on paper because I feel those have more meaning besides the 3 words said between two people.
I feel that me praying for that someone shows that I do value and love that person.
I strongly feel that me just showing that I actually care about the little and big things in a person..
and holding them accountable...shows that I love and care about them...because I value the well being of a person.
I am not into the materialistic type of relationship.
I am into the Godly type. The type that God wanted us to have with one another.
-am rambling...ergh-
I really wanted this to be organized in a fashion that makes it understandable and...just...I don't even know..good? Good in showing that I am very honest in what I feel and want...I am very real about what is on my heart and mind, all of my feelings...---
I don't doubt that I'll have a Godly, loving, healthy relationship one day...
I just..wonder...when? Ya know?
I don't want to show you that I am weak..because I am not. I am strong in my independence.
Yet, I do say that I am human...and I can't stop these thoughts and feelings arise from time to time..
because every human wants to be loved and cared for...to mutually share everything with that one person and feel something..nice..
It's rare for the general people to have a healthy relationship anymore and that is sad...
It breaks my heart in that sense...but I feel, the broken hearted can always be mended to be greater, stronger, and be of a love that is so deep and intricate..it'll be inspirational.
Whoever you may be, good Sir...
I'm sure that you're awesome and are worth my time, love, respect, and care.
I wish nothing, but happiness for all those couples, singles..and...friendships. :)
To find happiness in one person is a challenge, but there is hope..
because God gives us that hope. Hope in a better heart shared. I admire God for such a gift of love. Praises be to Him.
Btw, dear good Sir...
You might find it a good value you to know that...I love God, Star Wars, Star Trek,
video games, sarcasm, humor, reading, writing, artsy things, and
I do love hockey.
I hate chick flicks...they're too much for me..
and one word for you, "derp."
If we share something purely awesome..that means...we shall be purely awesome together.
The End of all rants of relationships, lovey dovey stuff..and the "like" of such.
-awkward penguin-
There's something more...
I have these firm beliefs that there is something so much more significant in life for all those who deserve it or who dedicate their time to what is meaningful.
I guess, that at times it's so easy for us to just...get foggy in knowing what is best, right, and believing there will be a brighter insight in what may be to come.
A friend of mine who I call, "Zelda" that I met at Moore, called me today.
She had updated me with her health status and how she was going to be further testing and help.
(My friend, has a lot of health problems and it's really sad. Though, it's not for me to state as to what those are.)
I felt....sad, but relieved in knowing she was seeking and furthering help for what she's facing.
She told me this as well, "I feel that despite I've withdrawn from Moore and am going through a rough time, just like you are in a sense, I feel God has led me to meet you for a reason and I am thankful. Thank you, Makaya."
This...touched my heart, sincerely. I'm not one to be very...emotional over sentimental things at times despite I am -a very sentimental, loving type of person deep down in my heart, I just..don't always know how to show that-
I very well...wanted to somewhat cry? I guess? I felt the feeling of my eyes swelling...
She continued on and then said this, "You gave me faith to know I could get better. I'm somewhat pessimistic because of my issues, but you make me feel worth something."
I silently cried.
Knowingly, that I've touched a life...I mean, I only knew her for maybe...4 weeks in school, then I left...
how is it that I've done good in a heart that I barely had known? How is it that God has chosen me to touch a life that wanted to not be of this world any longer?
I told her this, "Have faith. It'll get better and I'll pray for you. I don't know how I could have helped you before, or even in the end of it all, but what I do know..I am here for you in the hardship. I am here by your side. Remember that."
I told her to know, there is something more to what we have in life. There is something more to a life to be lived.
There is something more to her and who she is. She has a heart that is so much more than what she realizes. She's sweet, kind, and thoughtful. She IS a blessing to me, her family and friends, and to everyone who crosses their path.
I feel...her story has inspired me to just know there is something more to each person...deeper than what's upon the very surface.
I have known that, but to really..go digging...is what has gotten me thinking...why and how she is such an inspiration.
She is a girl who is something and worth more. Who is fighting a good fight. She is that light that has to be seen.
She has a brightness about her that has opened my eyes and I am so thankful.
Through hardships we see in other people, we see that through our own, together, we can fight a good fight, and see that there is always something more in what is, what is to come, and be gone...
There is ALWAYS something more with God.
God has given us both something more than what we bargained for, each other.
Each other to share a fight of hardship and to see that God is ultimate in the end of it all and that's what is something more in our hearts and lives today.
I am thankful that there is something more.
<3
I guess, that at times it's so easy for us to just...get foggy in knowing what is best, right, and believing there will be a brighter insight in what may be to come.
A friend of mine who I call, "Zelda" that I met at Moore, called me today.
She had updated me with her health status and how she was going to be further testing and help.
(My friend, has a lot of health problems and it's really sad. Though, it's not for me to state as to what those are.)
I felt....sad, but relieved in knowing she was seeking and furthering help for what she's facing.
She told me this as well, "I feel that despite I've withdrawn from Moore and am going through a rough time, just like you are in a sense, I feel God has led me to meet you for a reason and I am thankful. Thank you, Makaya."
This...touched my heart, sincerely. I'm not one to be very...emotional over sentimental things at times despite I am -a very sentimental, loving type of person deep down in my heart, I just..don't always know how to show that-
I very well...wanted to somewhat cry? I guess? I felt the feeling of my eyes swelling...
She continued on and then said this, "You gave me faith to know I could get better. I'm somewhat pessimistic because of my issues, but you make me feel worth something."
I silently cried.
Knowingly, that I've touched a life...I mean, I only knew her for maybe...4 weeks in school, then I left...
how is it that I've done good in a heart that I barely had known? How is it that God has chosen me to touch a life that wanted to not be of this world any longer?
I told her this, "Have faith. It'll get better and I'll pray for you. I don't know how I could have helped you before, or even in the end of it all, but what I do know..I am here for you in the hardship. I am here by your side. Remember that."
I told her to know, there is something more to what we have in life. There is something more to a life to be lived.
There is something more to her and who she is. She has a heart that is so much more than what she realizes. She's sweet, kind, and thoughtful. She IS a blessing to me, her family and friends, and to everyone who crosses their path.
I feel...her story has inspired me to just know there is something more to each person...deeper than what's upon the very surface.
I have known that, but to really..go digging...is what has gotten me thinking...why and how she is such an inspiration.
She is a girl who is something and worth more. Who is fighting a good fight. She is that light that has to be seen.
She has a brightness about her that has opened my eyes and I am so thankful.
Through hardships we see in other people, we see that through our own, together, we can fight a good fight, and see that there is always something more in what is, what is to come, and be gone...
There is ALWAYS something more with God.
God has given us both something more than what we bargained for, each other.
Each other to share a fight of hardship and to see that God is ultimate in the end of it all and that's what is something more in our hearts and lives today.
I am thankful that there is something more.
<3
Sunday, November 6, 2011
Friendships
Friendships.
The relationships that are never ending, nor do the people that are so completely special to you ever lose a place in your heart.
What is a friend?
A friend who isn't just there for you, but who is willing to listen, hold you accountable, loving, caring, understanding, and forgiving of your well being and heart.
They're willing to go out of there way for you, not simply because they're attempting to be nice, but they want to.
They're willing to share interests, jokes, sarcasm, music, skills, life experiences/stories from their hearts so that you may learn as well of what they've gained in life.
They're willing to set you in your place whenever you're a jerk and still are completely loving and forgiving.
Or, simply, they just love to set you in your place for the fact of liking you for who you are.
Accepting all that you are and aren't afraid to say that nor show the emotions behind it all of how they exactly feel.
I've learned that...the friends that I have, I am EXTREMELY blessed by and so thankful for.
I don't know where I would be without any of them.
I must say, I possess some of the most awesome friends.
Not because they fit the 'category' of friend, but for the simple fact of
they're just...so surpassing of the genericness of a friend (i know that isn't a real word, but I needed something.)
I have had my share of friendships that were both healthy and unhealthy, if anything I've come to realize now, every single friendship had this deeper meaning behind that has built me up as a person..
These friendships were built on a foundation that was so firm...it can't be shaken.
These friends that I've made have chosen me for a reason. They saw something in my heart that was great and different.
I would have never thought I would have made the friends that I have now in a million years because when I was younger, I didn't believe in friendships, simply only people who I would merely talk to -if- I had to...not because I wanted to.
Now, I believe I have friends that I do no matter where they're located geographically, for a reason...a grace given to me by God...a blessing..that was given to me because I didn't deserve it, but due to the fact or principle that God wanted it to be so we made encourage and love one another for the heart seeing past all the flaws..so that we may become better in what God has created us to be; loving and compassionate beings.
All of the friends that I have now I consider a gain, hearts to respect, love, and value...
each and every single one of them a complete blessing...because I've learned things from them that I probably wouldn't of with anyone else.
Therefore, cherish your friends. Value them. Love them. Be all that you can be for them because you want to for God and that friend, doing nothing out of selfish ambition, but all for the better of that friendship and person being completely selfless and sacrificing.
People need that more in a person, a friend...more than you think.
To all of my friends that I've made all over the places I've lived, been educated, worked, etc...
Thank you. Just wanted to thank you for your undying friendship with me,
sharing all that you are in your heart and being,
trusting and having faith in me as a friend..
and
thank you for being YOU. Don't change yourself. Keep the faith and know that you really are respected, cherished, valued, and loved by a friend.
This I do because God has called me to do so and simply... because I want to. :)
Thanks for everything that you've been to me. You all are surpassing the very meaning of awesome in my eyes.
-Ends sentimental stuff here-
<3 Mak
PS. Be yourself always and never fear to share who you are. Some of us actually do care. :)
The relationships that are never ending, nor do the people that are so completely special to you ever lose a place in your heart.
What is a friend?
A friend who isn't just there for you, but who is willing to listen, hold you accountable, loving, caring, understanding, and forgiving of your well being and heart.
They're willing to go out of there way for you, not simply because they're attempting to be nice, but they want to.
They're willing to share interests, jokes, sarcasm, music, skills, life experiences/stories from their hearts so that you may learn as well of what they've gained in life.
They're willing to set you in your place whenever you're a jerk and still are completely loving and forgiving.
Or, simply, they just love to set you in your place for the fact of liking you for who you are.
Accepting all that you are and aren't afraid to say that nor show the emotions behind it all of how they exactly feel.
I've learned that...the friends that I have, I am EXTREMELY blessed by and so thankful for.
I don't know where I would be without any of them.
I must say, I possess some of the most awesome friends.
Not because they fit the 'category' of friend, but for the simple fact of
they're just...so surpassing of the genericness of a friend (i know that isn't a real word, but I needed something.)
I have had my share of friendships that were both healthy and unhealthy, if anything I've come to realize now, every single friendship had this deeper meaning behind that has built me up as a person..
These friendships were built on a foundation that was so firm...it can't be shaken.
These friends that I've made have chosen me for a reason. They saw something in my heart that was great and different.
I would have never thought I would have made the friends that I have now in a million years because when I was younger, I didn't believe in friendships, simply only people who I would merely talk to -if- I had to...not because I wanted to.
Now, I believe I have friends that I do no matter where they're located geographically, for a reason...a grace given to me by God...a blessing..that was given to me because I didn't deserve it, but due to the fact or principle that God wanted it to be so we made encourage and love one another for the heart seeing past all the flaws..so that we may become better in what God has created us to be; loving and compassionate beings.
All of the friends that I have now I consider a gain, hearts to respect, love, and value...
each and every single one of them a complete blessing...because I've learned things from them that I probably wouldn't of with anyone else.
Therefore, cherish your friends. Value them. Love them. Be all that you can be for them because you want to for God and that friend, doing nothing out of selfish ambition, but all for the better of that friendship and person being completely selfless and sacrificing.
People need that more in a person, a friend...more than you think.
To all of my friends that I've made all over the places I've lived, been educated, worked, etc...
Thank you. Just wanted to thank you for your undying friendship with me,
sharing all that you are in your heart and being,
trusting and having faith in me as a friend..
and
thank you for being YOU. Don't change yourself. Keep the faith and know that you really are respected, cherished, valued, and loved by a friend.
This I do because God has called me to do so and simply... because I want to. :)
Thanks for everything that you've been to me. You all are surpassing the very meaning of awesome in my eyes.
-Ends sentimental stuff here-
<3 Mak
PS. Be yourself always and never fear to share who you are. Some of us actually do care. :)
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
A Life to Please God.
Lately,
I have been experiencing my fair share of the up and down eras.
Although, these up and down moments have not hindered my faith, but rather have stirred up this curiosity and yearn for so much more in what I have now and will in time.
How to explain...
Have you ever felt that there was a certain someone, career path, or something so much more just waiting for you and you're all the more curious as to whom that person or what it could be?
Have you ever pondered what God's purpose for you so immensely that it causes you to ask God all the more to reveal to you His majesty and will?
To reveal to you that one person who will be with you until the world is no more?
These thoughts have arisen in my mind quite more than exactly wanted...
As in, I want to be content in my life where I am at so that I can live it all out loud all the more to please God and bring Him glory.
I don't want to be in a career path out of selfish ambition, but to bring Him glory and to use my hands on/ life experiences/talents in that career path or the life alone that I live for Him. If I weren't to do so, what would be the point in that?
Would there be an exact purpose?
I am praying to just lead a life for Him.
Relationships:
They're not about just the meaning of love, but what the action of love is. They're about a friendship that is cherished between the two people equally to where they've decided to be dedicated in a 'more serious friendship' that is called a relationship because of the love that dwells in their hearts for one another.
Relationships are to be about care, deep respect/trust, compassion, altruism, and faith in one another, God, and be a great example of what they stand for in this world.
From a Christian stand point,
I do believe a relationship between two people should be of Christ's love, putting on the Armor of God when living in this world so that they may influence others to follow in that example (following in the example of how Christ lived and loved His people).
To value what they have in one another.
The trust and respect between the man and woman is so intricate and divine, it cannot be hindered because the love is abounding through their veins so vast that it has shown such an uniqueness and greatness that should never be broken because the two people can do so much for one another to build each other up, to live for God and their significant other as practicing the love of Christ through showing their love to others as well.
(Does that make any sense? I don't know, but it does to me. Sometimes, I'm abstract, but I know what I feel and think).
I feel relationships have lost their true meaning and value because so many relationships are just in it for the other person and not on an equal value. How is that fair to the other person and you alone?
It isn't.
Sometimes, relationships are in it for the right reasons at first, but as time goes on, the honesty in the hearts cringe away because of the world tackling what was once healthy to make it a disease.
(I am not saying every relationship is a disease. I'm saying that they can turn to be 'emotionally deadly' and damage happiness for one person, despite one is happy, it will soon turn to a spread of a plague that destroys happiness and sometimes a once was friendship and what was between the two beings).
I see relationship after relationship between pretty much all of my friends. Most of my friends are dating and I am extremely happy for them. I want the best for the each of them and all the more being that their hearts are protected and healthy, nothing less, nothing more. Just for them to be happy and healthy in what they're involved of, and same for that significant other despite I may not know them or even if I do.
It's equal on all parts there.
My confession is...I'm feeling slightly jealous because I've been that, "best friend" to men, and don't get me wrong, I am HONORED, but I do have moments where I sometimes wonder if I've actually met that right guy already or not.
Apart of me feels I've definitely met a few potential guys that would be great for me, and I am for them...
Yet, what I need to remember and continue to do is God has a plan and that one perfect person for me and I am continuously waiting patiently.
I am not in a rush to go into a relationship, but I feel I've healed enough to enter a potential one.
Again, God knows who and the perfect timing for such a relationship to take off. I give Him all the more praises for Him helping me with how I feel in my heart, beliefs, and living for Him on this subject and life as it is.
In or not in a relationship or sure/unsure of our career paths, we should be living our lives to please God. That isn't always easy, but that's why we have a Savior and a God who loves us so much to help us with our daily living and to provide.
A thought of the day:
1 Thessalonians 4
Living to Please God
1 As for other matters, brothers and sisters, we instructed you how to live in order to please God, as in fact you are living. Now we ask you and urge you in the Lord Jesus to do this more and more. 2 For you know what instructions we gave you by the authority of the Lord Jesus.
3 It is God’s will that you should be sanctified: that you should avoid sexual immorality; 4 that each of you should learn to control your own body[a] in a way that is holy and honorable, 5 not in passionate lust like the pagans, who do not know God; 6 and that in this matter no one should wrong or take advantage of a brother or sister.[b] The Lord will punish all those who commit such sins, as we told you and warned you before. 7 For God did not call us to be impure, but to live a holy life. 8 Therefore, anyone who rejects this instruction does not reject a human being but God, the very God who gives you his Holy Spirit.
9 Now about your love for one another we do not need to write to you, for you yourselves have been taught by God to love each other. 10 And in fact, you do love all of God’s family throughout Macedonia. Yet we urge you, brothers and sisters, to do so more and more, 11 and to make it your ambition to lead a quiet life: You should mind your own business and work with your hands, just as we told you, 12 so that your daily life may win the respect of outsiders and so that you will not be dependent on anybody.
We need to be equally committing our hearts to God through everything we do and pursue whether it be a friendship, relationship, hobby, career, talent, etc.
Everything we do needs to be giving all the glory and praises to God through a life pleasing to Him.
God has taught us the right way to live, therefore, we ought to be doing as He has instructed with hearts and minds in the right place of God never out of selfish ambition or frustration.
If one does something out of sinful reasons, they're wronging another, themselves, and God.
We all have moments like these, but I urge everyone to evaluate where you're at in life, relationships, friendships, careers, anything for that matter, and upmostly God so that you're able to get back on the right track and never straying away like a lamb from its Shepard.
I pray that we all know the differences between right and wrong in our hearts for God so we may bring glory to Him, living a life pleasing in His eyes rather than for anyone else or ourselves.
I pray that we also find happiness and learn to truly value what is precious to us, our God.
I pray for all good things in His name.
As always, I hope this was food for a thought to all or some, whoever this reaches, I really pray and hope it has helped you in a significant way in your heart as it did in my own.
Praying for all.
<3
Mak
I have been experiencing my fair share of the up and down eras.
Although, these up and down moments have not hindered my faith, but rather have stirred up this curiosity and yearn for so much more in what I have now and will in time.
How to explain...
Have you ever felt that there was a certain someone, career path, or something so much more just waiting for you and you're all the more curious as to whom that person or what it could be?
Have you ever pondered what God's purpose for you so immensely that it causes you to ask God all the more to reveal to you His majesty and will?
To reveal to you that one person who will be with you until the world is no more?
These thoughts have arisen in my mind quite more than exactly wanted...
As in, I want to be content in my life where I am at so that I can live it all out loud all the more to please God and bring Him glory.
I don't want to be in a career path out of selfish ambition, but to bring Him glory and to use my hands on/ life experiences/talents in that career path or the life alone that I live for Him. If I weren't to do so, what would be the point in that?
Would there be an exact purpose?
I am praying to just lead a life for Him.
Relationships:
They're not about just the meaning of love, but what the action of love is. They're about a friendship that is cherished between the two people equally to where they've decided to be dedicated in a 'more serious friendship' that is called a relationship because of the love that dwells in their hearts for one another.
Relationships are to be about care, deep respect/trust, compassion, altruism, and faith in one another, God, and be a great example of what they stand for in this world.
From a Christian stand point,
I do believe a relationship between two people should be of Christ's love, putting on the Armor of God when living in this world so that they may influence others to follow in that example (following in the example of how Christ lived and loved His people).
To value what they have in one another.
The trust and respect between the man and woman is so intricate and divine, it cannot be hindered because the love is abounding through their veins so vast that it has shown such an uniqueness and greatness that should never be broken because the two people can do so much for one another to build each other up, to live for God and their significant other as practicing the love of Christ through showing their love to others as well.
(Does that make any sense? I don't know, but it does to me. Sometimes, I'm abstract, but I know what I feel and think).
I feel relationships have lost their true meaning and value because so many relationships are just in it for the other person and not on an equal value. How is that fair to the other person and you alone?
It isn't.
Sometimes, relationships are in it for the right reasons at first, but as time goes on, the honesty in the hearts cringe away because of the world tackling what was once healthy to make it a disease.
(I am not saying every relationship is a disease. I'm saying that they can turn to be 'emotionally deadly' and damage happiness for one person, despite one is happy, it will soon turn to a spread of a plague that destroys happiness and sometimes a once was friendship and what was between the two beings).
I see relationship after relationship between pretty much all of my friends. Most of my friends are dating and I am extremely happy for them. I want the best for the each of them and all the more being that their hearts are protected and healthy, nothing less, nothing more. Just for them to be happy and healthy in what they're involved of, and same for that significant other despite I may not know them or even if I do.
It's equal on all parts there.
My confession is...I'm feeling slightly jealous because I've been that, "best friend" to men, and don't get me wrong, I am HONORED, but I do have moments where I sometimes wonder if I've actually met that right guy already or not.
Apart of me feels I've definitely met a few potential guys that would be great for me, and I am for them...
Yet, what I need to remember and continue to do is God has a plan and that one perfect person for me and I am continuously waiting patiently.
I am not in a rush to go into a relationship, but I feel I've healed enough to enter a potential one.
Again, God knows who and the perfect timing for such a relationship to take off. I give Him all the more praises for Him helping me with how I feel in my heart, beliefs, and living for Him on this subject and life as it is.
In or not in a relationship or sure/unsure of our career paths, we should be living our lives to please God. That isn't always easy, but that's why we have a Savior and a God who loves us so much to help us with our daily living and to provide.
A thought of the day:
1 Thessalonians 4
Living to Please God
1 As for other matters, brothers and sisters, we instructed you how to live in order to please God, as in fact you are living. Now we ask you and urge you in the Lord Jesus to do this more and more. 2 For you know what instructions we gave you by the authority of the Lord Jesus.
3 It is God’s will that you should be sanctified: that you should avoid sexual immorality; 4 that each of you should learn to control your own body[a] in a way that is holy and honorable, 5 not in passionate lust like the pagans, who do not know God; 6 and that in this matter no one should wrong or take advantage of a brother or sister.[b] The Lord will punish all those who commit such sins, as we told you and warned you before. 7 For God did not call us to be impure, but to live a holy life. 8 Therefore, anyone who rejects this instruction does not reject a human being but God, the very God who gives you his Holy Spirit.
9 Now about your love for one another we do not need to write to you, for you yourselves have been taught by God to love each other. 10 And in fact, you do love all of God’s family throughout Macedonia. Yet we urge you, brothers and sisters, to do so more and more, 11 and to make it your ambition to lead a quiet life: You should mind your own business and work with your hands, just as we told you, 12 so that your daily life may win the respect of outsiders and so that you will not be dependent on anybody.
We need to be equally committing our hearts to God through everything we do and pursue whether it be a friendship, relationship, hobby, career, talent, etc.
Everything we do needs to be giving all the glory and praises to God through a life pleasing to Him.
God has taught us the right way to live, therefore, we ought to be doing as He has instructed with hearts and minds in the right place of God never out of selfish ambition or frustration.
If one does something out of sinful reasons, they're wronging another, themselves, and God.
We all have moments like these, but I urge everyone to evaluate where you're at in life, relationships, friendships, careers, anything for that matter, and upmostly God so that you're able to get back on the right track and never straying away like a lamb from its Shepard.
I pray that we all know the differences between right and wrong in our hearts for God so we may bring glory to Him, living a life pleasing in His eyes rather than for anyone else or ourselves.
I pray that we also find happiness and learn to truly value what is precious to us, our God.
I pray for all good things in His name.
As always, I hope this was food for a thought to all or some, whoever this reaches, I really pray and hope it has helped you in a significant way in your heart as it did in my own.
Praying for all.
<3
Mak
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