Lately, I've been experiencing my own share of struggles and I realize I have weaknesses that hold me back from succeeding.
These weaknesses that I struggle with on a daily basis, I accept the fact that the Lord made me this way. He made these weaknesses apart of me so that I may use them according to His ways to minister to others.
I am currently living with untreated ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder). This disorder affects many people both children and adults daily.
ADD is not something everyone understands, so I'm going to explain to you what it exactly is and how it affects me daily:
(reference information from: helpguide.org)
Attention deficit disorder–also known as ADHD or ADD–is not merely a problem with paying attention. ADHD makes it difficult to manage the multiple tasks of daily life, especially complex tasks that require organization, planning, and sustained focus.
ADHD is challenging, but once you understand the problem and how it affects your life, you can learn to compensate for areas of weakness and take advantage of your many strengths and talents.
People with ADD/ADHD have issues paying attention, accomplishing or even starting tasks, keeping organized, have problems with remembering tasks, events, or what they may have learned.
One may tend to procrastinate and be very 'scattered.'
There is hyperactivity and impulsivity involved as well.
Different symptoms can range in different people depending on their chemical imbalance and the amount of neurons being transmitted.
What I face:
-Disorganization with home/studying/note taking/time
-Forgetfulness
-A hard time paying attention
-Difficulty accomplishing or even starting homework/studying/several tasks.
-Procrastination
-Dealing with stress and frustration
(these are the ones I know for sure off hand that I can pinpoint that bother me daily)
Frankly, I feel what I am facing is so difficult at this point in my life to live with on a basis that can be controlled because I am taking classes in college and work 2 jobs, which is..realistically manageable by a 19 year old, but for me..it's becoming more and more of a challenge each day.
This challenge feels..almost impossible to overcome because I am experiencing stress and moments where I am so confused and unsure of what to do and how to deal.
There's not a day that I don't doubt I could improve, I just know according to God's timing..it'll work out for the best despite it is foggy right now.
It does not hinder my faith in God whatsoever. I completely am knowledgeable of the fact God has created me in such a intricate and creative way to where that I can do good despite my struggles.
Everyone struggles differently, this I know, but we should not let these struggles we face hinder our relationship with God, one another, how we go about our careers, schooling, or daily basis in life. We should rather be thankful we have these struggles and thank the Lord we can learn about ourselves and one another in His name. We are able to make something so beautiful out of these struggles to where, we forget the fact we even face the daily challenges.
God has given us what we have in our lives for a beautiful reason and I've found that the reason is to gain a sense of comfort in knowing that none of us are alone despite how much we may feel like it. The Lord understands and knows us best. He knows our struggles...and with how He heals us, is by working His Spirit through others to let us know, He is there and we aren't alone by having the ability to relate to others and encourage one another.
That is such a blessing that has made our struggles beautiful.
What is also beautiful in our struggles is that...we begin to trust in God so much more than we could have ever expected from our own hearts. God draws so near to us that it brings us to a state of worship and humbling ourselves before the cross. How awesome is that?
Also, for Him to use our struggles to minister to others...beautiful!
It's so true to say, "Lord, you make beautiful things! You make beautiful things out of us!"
We as Christians should remember that God helps us in our weaknesses/struggles and makes us strong every single time in the end of each state of difficulty.
Apostle Paul struggled, but he went to the Lord in prayer and prayed for guidance and strength. He struggled so much that He did not let those weaknesses hinder his faith in God one bit. We need to do the same despite the difficulty of just doing that.
2 Corinthians 12:9-10
9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 10 That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong."
All the more, we should praise God for how we were created and what we go through because it's all for a reason to better His kingdom and how we live our lives as a follower of Christ with Him and one another.
God has a plan for everything according to His wonderful timing. Don't let anything hinder your thoughts of where you should be, why you are experiencing something difficult, or why you were wired the way you were...it's out of God's creativity and love...out of His grace and wisdom...that you are who you are.
There is so much color to our lives that we are beautiful.
We are all beautiful through everything we are and experience all through the grace of God.
Ecclesiastes 3:11
11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet[a] no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end.
Never forget that you're not alone and are so loved.
God is so good to us. Each and every little thing is to be cherished as a blessing from God.
Praying for everyone out there.
<3 Mak
Friday, October 21, 2011
Thursday, October 20, 2011
Lord, let us follow You.
"I will follow" -Chris Tomlin
Where you go, I'll go
Where you stay, I'll stay
When you move, I'll move
I will follow...
All your ways are good
All your ways are sure
I will trust in you alone
Higher than my side
High above my life
I will trust in you alone
Where you go, I'll go
Where you stay, I'll stay
When you move, I'll move
I will follow you
Who you love, I'll love
How you serve I'll serve
If this life I lose, I will follow you
I will follow you
Light unto the world
Light unto my life
I will live for you alone
You're the one I seek
Knowing I will find
All I need in you alone, in you alone
In you there's life everlasting
In you there's freedom for my soul
In you there joy, unending joy
and I will follow
It's often that not only myself alone struggle, but I forget to realize that we all struggle daily.
Some days, I can honestly say that I really do feel alone in how I live my life and how I struggle with my faith.
What I feel and actually do is completely different in certain moments.
As in, I'll pray to God about whatever, but is there moments I actually act it out? Yes and no.
I feel that once I go through a hard time, I tend to get so...'scared' of what it is then and is to come because I am unsure.
That feeling of being unsure is something that really eats at me.
I wouldn't say that I don't know how, but I do struggle to trust in the fact that I am where I am for a reason in the eyes of God despite it may not be clear to me.
I know that it doesn't have to be clear to me where I am at with my life because it's all clear to God where He wants, has, and will do for me.
I trust that God's ways are the ways to life. I trust in God.
But, I sometimes wonder that when I say, "I trust in the Lord." Do I really trust in the Lord?
Am I giving Him myself wholeheartedly?
Am I trusting Him with everything that I've got in my heart and life so that He may be glorified?
If I am not, then I want to. I want to do all that I can do to be what the Lord has created me to be for the glory of Him.
What I want is people to realize, God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called.
We are a called people who are always being qualified for the works of the Lord daily.
I am realizing that whatever all that it is that I am going through, these moments I will cherish all the more because they're for the glory of God.
These moments are the moments where God is building me up to be qualified because He has called me out of darkness.
He has called you out of darkness. He has called you into His perfect light.
How easy is it to say this, but to really trust in it!
I pray that all that we say in the Gospel of Christ when sharing all that we know of Christ is not only about reaching out in His name, but being able to apply all of the content to our lives daily in the act of Christ and love for Him.
I realize that all that all I experience is for the glory of God because He had it planned so that I may learn.
God wants me to learn and gain so much in His eyes. God would never put anything in our pathways to harm us. He only wants what is best.
This is what faith can do...
It brings me to share openly with all of you and my Lord what I struggle through and what it is that brings upon these thoughts.
Only a daily basis, I usually have tons of subjects that I want to blog about with my faith and how God is working...
It's hard to find time. God understands.
All I can also say is that,
How we follow Christ, is out of our lively acts, not just talk.
Act it all out. Don't be afraid. God knows your heart and that's all that matters.
Praying that we would have the courage to openly discuss our issues so we may help encourage one another in the faith and know
that what we experience is to help us realize God knows and none of us are alone.
We aren't alone in the faith and in God's eyes.
Acts 11:23
23 When he arrived and saw what the grace of God had done, he was glad and encouraged them all to remain true to the Lord with all their hearts.
I encourage you with a challenge,
To act out in faith.
To encourage one another in the faith.
To share all what's on your heart with God and one another, so that you may be healed and renewed.
Follow the Lord your God for He is good!
Praying for you all.
PS. I know my writing is somewhat scattered in this, but I believe you'll get the jist of it.
In the journey of light and dark,
<3 Mak
Where you go, I'll go
Where you stay, I'll stay
When you move, I'll move
I will follow...
All your ways are good
All your ways are sure
I will trust in you alone
Higher than my side
High above my life
I will trust in you alone
Where you go, I'll go
Where you stay, I'll stay
When you move, I'll move
I will follow you
Who you love, I'll love
How you serve I'll serve
If this life I lose, I will follow you
I will follow you
Light unto the world
Light unto my life
I will live for you alone
You're the one I seek
Knowing I will find
All I need in you alone, in you alone
In you there's life everlasting
In you there's freedom for my soul
In you there joy, unending joy
and I will follow
It's often that not only myself alone struggle, but I forget to realize that we all struggle daily.
Some days, I can honestly say that I really do feel alone in how I live my life and how I struggle with my faith.
What I feel and actually do is completely different in certain moments.
As in, I'll pray to God about whatever, but is there moments I actually act it out? Yes and no.
I feel that once I go through a hard time, I tend to get so...'scared' of what it is then and is to come because I am unsure.
That feeling of being unsure is something that really eats at me.
I wouldn't say that I don't know how, but I do struggle to trust in the fact that I am where I am for a reason in the eyes of God despite it may not be clear to me.
I know that it doesn't have to be clear to me where I am at with my life because it's all clear to God where He wants, has, and will do for me.
I trust that God's ways are the ways to life. I trust in God.
But, I sometimes wonder that when I say, "I trust in the Lord." Do I really trust in the Lord?
Am I giving Him myself wholeheartedly?
Am I trusting Him with everything that I've got in my heart and life so that He may be glorified?
If I am not, then I want to. I want to do all that I can do to be what the Lord has created me to be for the glory of Him.
What I want is people to realize, God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called.
We are a called people who are always being qualified for the works of the Lord daily.
I am realizing that whatever all that it is that I am going through, these moments I will cherish all the more because they're for the glory of God.
These moments are the moments where God is building me up to be qualified because He has called me out of darkness.
He has called you out of darkness. He has called you into His perfect light.
How easy is it to say this, but to really trust in it!
I pray that all that we say in the Gospel of Christ when sharing all that we know of Christ is not only about reaching out in His name, but being able to apply all of the content to our lives daily in the act of Christ and love for Him.
I realize that all that all I experience is for the glory of God because He had it planned so that I may learn.
God wants me to learn and gain so much in His eyes. God would never put anything in our pathways to harm us. He only wants what is best.
This is what faith can do...
It brings me to share openly with all of you and my Lord what I struggle through and what it is that brings upon these thoughts.
Only a daily basis, I usually have tons of subjects that I want to blog about with my faith and how God is working...
It's hard to find time. God understands.
All I can also say is that,
How we follow Christ, is out of our lively acts, not just talk.
Act it all out. Don't be afraid. God knows your heart and that's all that matters.
Praying that we would have the courage to openly discuss our issues so we may help encourage one another in the faith and know
that what we experience is to help us realize God knows and none of us are alone.
We aren't alone in the faith and in God's eyes.
Acts 11:23
23 When he arrived and saw what the grace of God had done, he was glad and encouraged them all to remain true to the Lord with all their hearts.
I encourage you with a challenge,
To act out in faith.
To encourage one another in the faith.
To share all what's on your heart with God and one another, so that you may be healed and renewed.
Follow the Lord your God for He is good!
Praying for you all.
PS. I know my writing is somewhat scattered in this, but I believe you'll get the jist of it.
In the journey of light and dark,
<3 Mak
Let it be for You.
Struggles.
What are they exactly in the eyes of God?
In my eyes?
Do they define who I am?
Do they shape my heart?
Is it all what helps me to differentiate between right and wrong?
What am I gaining?
What is it that I have loss?
When will I persevere?
When will I strive to unlearn?
When God...when will I know what is exactly my placement...
when will I know all that is right for me to pursue?
I know to praise You. To give all of my thanks...
Lord, I will not give up. I need the strength only you could give to me.
All I ask of You is strength to carry on.
Lord, I love You.
Let all that I learn to unlearn be all for You. Let all that I am in what I struggle be for You so that I may give You all the more praise, love, thanks, and glory.
May all that we ever write and go through in our lives, be for the glory and love of You.
What are they exactly in the eyes of God?
In my eyes?
Do they define who I am?
Do they shape my heart?
Is it all what helps me to differentiate between right and wrong?
What am I gaining?
What is it that I have loss?
When will I persevere?
When will I strive to unlearn?
When God...when will I know what is exactly my placement...
when will I know all that is right for me to pursue?
I know to praise You. To give all of my thanks...
Lord, I will not give up. I need the strength only you could give to me.
All I ask of You is strength to carry on.
Lord, I love You.
Let all that I learn to unlearn be all for You. Let all that I am in what I struggle be for You so that I may give You all the more praise, love, thanks, and glory.
May all that we ever write and go through in our lives, be for the glory and love of You.
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Take the Advice!
Greetings my fellow friends.
Have you ever been that one person friends would go to you for advice or words of wisdom? Help of any sort?
I know I have.
I've really pondered over whether how much I've helped a person and made some sort of significant difference in their thoughts or choices.
I have no doubt that I have, but it doesn't hurt to wonder what more could I do for a person?
What more could I say that would go deeper than the very underlining of meaning?
What could I possibly partake in to know that I've made an impact that sticks?
In my past, I know I've said and partaken in a vast amount of tasks that by God has made a influential pact on my surroundings.
Yet, right now I've been blessed by the Lord to be able to help and guide others, especially pray for them. That's just a blessing to me knowing I can help in such a way.
Do my words of wisdom even stick?
I firmly believe the only way such words that I speak will cultivate in the lives of others is that they're Biblically based. Firmly, I trust that the Lord will speak through me to answer others prayers, concerns, and worries by blessing me with the words of encouragement and the actions of love, compassion, care, and kindness.
God has taught us to encourage and love one another. To take advice deep to the core of our very being and hold steadfast to the advice from God the Father.
“Listen to advice and accept discipline, and at the end you will be counted among the wise. Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the LORD’s purpose that prevails.” Proverbs 19:20-21 NIV
Lord has a purpose for His words of wisdom and what is spoken to you at the time it is during whatever one may be experiencing. It's His love and timing that prevails. It's His ways that prevails. It's His PLANS that prevail because they're made out to prosper you, never to harm who you are.
God loves you so much that His sent His only Son Jesus to die for our sins and this living Word in flesh taught us to accept and persevere.
James 1:2-12
2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters,[a] whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. 4 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5 If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. 6 But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7 That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. 8 Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do.
9 Believers in humble circumstances ought to take pride in their high position. 10 But the rich should take pride in their humiliation—since they will pass away like a wild flower. 11 For the sun rises with scorching heat and withers the plant; its blossom falls and its beauty is destroyed. In the same way, the rich will fade away even while they go about their business.
12 Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him.
The Lord has brought me stability and taught me to take advice for not only myself, but for others who are in need. That's just a piece of what I've gained in my God.
No longer do I just question certain aspects, but now I accept what it is, knowing God is the ultimate advice giver in our lives in all types of experiences and times.
Trust in the Lord, for He is His God. God said, "I will be your God and you will be my people."
He loves yinz so much. :)
The Lord will bring stability to your life if you just trust and look for advice, wisdom, guidance, and the fruit of the Spirit in Him.
In Him, you'll find serenity in your heart.
I pray that all of you take the advice of the Lord and follow in His pathways where He is a lamp to your very feet.
Praying for you all.
In the journey of faith in both light and dark--In Christ,
Mak
Have you ever been that one person friends would go to you for advice or words of wisdom? Help of any sort?
I know I have.
I've really pondered over whether how much I've helped a person and made some sort of significant difference in their thoughts or choices.
I have no doubt that I have, but it doesn't hurt to wonder what more could I do for a person?
What more could I say that would go deeper than the very underlining of meaning?
What could I possibly partake in to know that I've made an impact that sticks?
In my past, I know I've said and partaken in a vast amount of tasks that by God has made a influential pact on my surroundings.
Yet, right now I've been blessed by the Lord to be able to help and guide others, especially pray for them. That's just a blessing to me knowing I can help in such a way.
Do my words of wisdom even stick?
I firmly believe the only way such words that I speak will cultivate in the lives of others is that they're Biblically based. Firmly, I trust that the Lord will speak through me to answer others prayers, concerns, and worries by blessing me with the words of encouragement and the actions of love, compassion, care, and kindness.
God has taught us to encourage and love one another. To take advice deep to the core of our very being and hold steadfast to the advice from God the Father.
“Listen to advice and accept discipline, and at the end you will be counted among the wise. Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the LORD’s purpose that prevails.” Proverbs 19:20-21 NIV
Lord has a purpose for His words of wisdom and what is spoken to you at the time it is during whatever one may be experiencing. It's His love and timing that prevails. It's His ways that prevails. It's His PLANS that prevail because they're made out to prosper you, never to harm who you are.
God loves you so much that His sent His only Son Jesus to die for our sins and this living Word in flesh taught us to accept and persevere.
James 1:2-12
2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters,[a] whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. 4 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5 If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. 6 But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7 That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. 8 Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do.
9 Believers in humble circumstances ought to take pride in their high position. 10 But the rich should take pride in their humiliation—since they will pass away like a wild flower. 11 For the sun rises with scorching heat and withers the plant; its blossom falls and its beauty is destroyed. In the same way, the rich will fade away even while they go about their business.
12 Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him.
The Lord has brought me stability and taught me to take advice for not only myself, but for others who are in need. That's just a piece of what I've gained in my God.
No longer do I just question certain aspects, but now I accept what it is, knowing God is the ultimate advice giver in our lives in all types of experiences and times.
Trust in the Lord, for He is His God. God said, "I will be your God and you will be my people."
He loves yinz so much. :)
The Lord will bring stability to your life if you just trust and look for advice, wisdom, guidance, and the fruit of the Spirit in Him.
In Him, you'll find serenity in your heart.
I pray that all of you take the advice of the Lord and follow in His pathways where He is a lamp to your very feet.
Praying for you all.
In the journey of faith in both light and dark--In Christ,
Mak
Friday, October 7, 2011
A commitment
A couple of years ago I attended this event called, "The Silver Ring Thing" and it was about saving our virginity, being pure in thoughts and acts, and to about waiting for our one true love.
I really agreed with what they had said and believed. Still do.
Well, in the program it shown a clip of a man and woman. Each wrote a letter to their beloved despite the fact they had no clue as to who their spouse would be that God would bless them with.
I have decided I'm going to do the same. I will indicate what it is that I promise to do and be for them.
I'm going to take my time in writing this letter to that man, but all I know is that God will bless us both.
God surely has someone out there for each person and I do not doubt His love, works, and timing. God is God and is the best.
I hope God will guide my thoughts in writing down my thoughts to be pure, honest, and pleasing in His sight for this man.
I also know, I will continuously pray for this man whoever or wherever he may be. I just know that whoever it is, I'm sure he's awesome in the eyes of God. :)
This is my plan and I don't want to fail this goal.
Hopefully, one day, I'll get to read or hand it to that person and know it's a precious apart of me that I'm handing to him that I hope he can cherish forever in knowing what I promise for him.
Other than that, yeah...it's a program that happened to inspire me this many years later..and I'm glad I had the chance to attend.
:)
I hope God gives you that special person in your life and that you both are pleasing in God eyes and chose to love/work hard in the eyes of God.
May God be with those people and all of His children for that matter. :)
Love,
Mak
I really agreed with what they had said and believed. Still do.
Well, in the program it shown a clip of a man and woman. Each wrote a letter to their beloved despite the fact they had no clue as to who their spouse would be that God would bless them with.
I have decided I'm going to do the same. I will indicate what it is that I promise to do and be for them.
I'm going to take my time in writing this letter to that man, but all I know is that God will bless us both.
God surely has someone out there for each person and I do not doubt His love, works, and timing. God is God and is the best.
I hope God will guide my thoughts in writing down my thoughts to be pure, honest, and pleasing in His sight for this man.
I also know, I will continuously pray for this man whoever or wherever he may be. I just know that whoever it is, I'm sure he's awesome in the eyes of God. :)
This is my plan and I don't want to fail this goal.
Hopefully, one day, I'll get to read or hand it to that person and know it's a precious apart of me that I'm handing to him that I hope he can cherish forever in knowing what I promise for him.
Other than that, yeah...it's a program that happened to inspire me this many years later..and I'm glad I had the chance to attend.
:)
I hope God gives you that special person in your life and that you both are pleasing in God eyes and chose to love/work hard in the eyes of God.
May God be with those people and all of His children for that matter. :)
Love,
Mak
Thursday, October 6, 2011
Nothing Left to Lose.
Have you ever wondered if there was all the more to gain rather than lose?
Questions arise and have you been one of the few to wonder what it is that you could gain in this life?
Lately,
I've been wondering what it is that I could have to gain.
Rather than thinking, what it is that I have to lose?
I realized, I have nothing left to lose, but so much more to gain in life.
Though, I may have days where I feel there is nothing to that could possibly be gained from a certain experience or what it is that God is telling me...
I realized that God has given so much to gain and nothing exactly is a loss because what we've learned is that what God has given is always a gain.
We gain courage, strength, wisdom, understanding, patience, compassion, kindness, love, and peace in the ways of our God. He wants nothing more for us than to gain understanding in what we experience and how we communicate with others.
God has wired us to be social and loving.
God will put us through experiences not to consider anything a loss, but a gain.
Realize this,
God loves you so much that He gave His only Son, Jesus Christ to die for you, me, and everyone else so that we may have life.
So that we may gain what is God's purpose for us, to love one another as He has loved us, compassion, wisdom, understanding, courage, strength, and, honestly this list could go on.
I can't stress enough to you that God wanted nothing more for you than to live and to gain so much out of life because it was meant to be.
My brothers and sisters,
believe that God is there for you and has never left your side. He has a plan to not harm, but to prosper you.
Through Christ Jesus, you gain what was meant for you.
Take a chance on Him and He'll give you so much more than you could have ever expected.
I say this because I know what He can do for you out of what He has done for me.
I hope that all of you don't find this too scattered as a thought (because I know it's really scattered and not organized well at all), but you would gain something out of this because really,
you have nothing left to lose.
In the journey of faith in light and dark,
-Mak
Questions arise and have you been one of the few to wonder what it is that you could gain in this life?
Lately,
I've been wondering what it is that I could have to gain.
Rather than thinking, what it is that I have to lose?
I realized, I have nothing left to lose, but so much more to gain in life.
Though, I may have days where I feel there is nothing to that could possibly be gained from a certain experience or what it is that God is telling me...
I realized that God has given so much to gain and nothing exactly is a loss because what we've learned is that what God has given is always a gain.
We gain courage, strength, wisdom, understanding, patience, compassion, kindness, love, and peace in the ways of our God. He wants nothing more for us than to gain understanding in what we experience and how we communicate with others.
God has wired us to be social and loving.
God will put us through experiences not to consider anything a loss, but a gain.
Realize this,
God loves you so much that He gave His only Son, Jesus Christ to die for you, me, and everyone else so that we may have life.
So that we may gain what is God's purpose for us, to love one another as He has loved us, compassion, wisdom, understanding, courage, strength, and, honestly this list could go on.
I can't stress enough to you that God wanted nothing more for you than to live and to gain so much out of life because it was meant to be.
My brothers and sisters,
believe that God is there for you and has never left your side. He has a plan to not harm, but to prosper you.
Through Christ Jesus, you gain what was meant for you.
Take a chance on Him and He'll give you so much more than you could have ever expected.
I say this because I know what He can do for you out of what He has done for me.
I hope that all of you don't find this too scattered as a thought (because I know it's really scattered and not organized well at all), but you would gain something out of this because really,
you have nothing left to lose.
In the journey of faith in light and dark,
-Mak
Friday, September 30, 2011
I asked. I was answered.
This is where I will be honest because I am not sure what else I could possibly do:
1. I've been selfish lately with God. I've wanted something greater than just a friendship with a person...
Yet, despite prayers, I've also asked in those prayers that God would teach me patience through experience rather than just giving it to me because a great friend/mentor to me; Leslie, said that God doesn't just hand over patience....He teaches it.
Well, with her wisdom, she was correct. God certainly teaches about patience through experience rather than just giving it so freely.
Nothing is given so freely...it's a learning experience and through the experiences we become not only just wise, but we gain so much understanding of who God is, why He does what He does, and His timing altogether. We learn of His great love and patience with us while we can learn to be that way with not just Him too, but others.
God is good. That's all I will say. He's good.
He's helped me to realize that I need to appreciate the people in my life and never want more than what I have right away just because I feel comfortable.
I need to be able to step outside of the comfort zone and be okay...
I haven't learned that with some places, but I'm still in training.
God has blessed me with friendships that are so significant to me that I sometimes wonder why it is, why is it that very person, what does our relationship with one another mean? What does our faith mean with one another?
I've learned that faith comes first before. Christ first in everything.
God answered my prayers to this: patience....in what way? This way:
Story:
I've liked a person for awhile and decided to hint around the area of him knowing because I wanted to be honest with him, God, and my feelings.
A friend of mine who knew of the situation talked to him previously and found out he wanted a friendship because he cared too much about me that he didn't want to ruin that.
He told me this:
"You're my best friend...."
Me: "And you don't want to ruin that."
Him: "Exactly. You're my best friend...because I am able to be myself around you...geek out to the highest of degrees...I'm thankful for that."
Me: "I understand. I think that's why I like you, too, because I am able to nerd out with you...and everything...with complete confidence...and..."
We both stopped...and nodded...
Him: "Well this is awkward..."
Me: "yeah...a bit..."
We both went off to class saying see ya later..as we normally would...
He was shocked that I had seen him more than a friend...he didn't realize...certain things...
What can I do? I want a friendship more than nothing with him. He's a wonderful person with a great heart. I really admire the fact God has shown me that a friendship is better than anything that could possibly go to ruin.
He taught me...that patience in the area of "dating" is important. I shouldn't be searching. I need to be searching for understanding and greater things with God rather than a relationship and material things of this world.
All I can do is continuously thank God for the great friendships I've been blessed with and ask that He just blesses these people who are in my life.
I pray that the Lord will continue to show me what's in important in life and teach me to be the best friend that I can be to all people that are in my life.
That He would teach me patience through experience.
To be pure in my mind and heart, to not want things of this world, but to be all that He is.
I pray that the Lord does the very same for all of His people.
To have a friendship and relationship with the Lord is the best relationship ever and His love never ends.
He's the best.
May the Lord show you that the people in your life aren't a mistake, but rather a complete blessing no matter the type of relationship you have with them. To be patient with all kinds of relationships because we are all different and to love one another because He loved first.
Blessings on your day and weekend,
In the journey of faith in the light and dark,
-Mak
1. I've been selfish lately with God. I've wanted something greater than just a friendship with a person...
Yet, despite prayers, I've also asked in those prayers that God would teach me patience through experience rather than just giving it to me because a great friend/mentor to me; Leslie, said that God doesn't just hand over patience....He teaches it.
Well, with her wisdom, she was correct. God certainly teaches about patience through experience rather than just giving it so freely.
Nothing is given so freely...it's a learning experience and through the experiences we become not only just wise, but we gain so much understanding of who God is, why He does what He does, and His timing altogether. We learn of His great love and patience with us while we can learn to be that way with not just Him too, but others.
God is good. That's all I will say. He's good.
He's helped me to realize that I need to appreciate the people in my life and never want more than what I have right away just because I feel comfortable.
I need to be able to step outside of the comfort zone and be okay...
I haven't learned that with some places, but I'm still in training.
God has blessed me with friendships that are so significant to me that I sometimes wonder why it is, why is it that very person, what does our relationship with one another mean? What does our faith mean with one another?
I've learned that faith comes first before. Christ first in everything.
God answered my prayers to this: patience....in what way? This way:
Story:
I've liked a person for awhile and decided to hint around the area of him knowing because I wanted to be honest with him, God, and my feelings.
A friend of mine who knew of the situation talked to him previously and found out he wanted a friendship because he cared too much about me that he didn't want to ruin that.
He told me this:
"You're my best friend...."
Me: "And you don't want to ruin that."
Him: "Exactly. You're my best friend...because I am able to be myself around you...geek out to the highest of degrees...I'm thankful for that."
Me: "I understand. I think that's why I like you, too, because I am able to nerd out with you...and everything...with complete confidence...and..."
We both stopped...and nodded...
Him: "Well this is awkward..."
Me: "yeah...a bit..."
We both went off to class saying see ya later..as we normally would...
He was shocked that I had seen him more than a friend...he didn't realize...certain things...
What can I do? I want a friendship more than nothing with him. He's a wonderful person with a great heart. I really admire the fact God has shown me that a friendship is better than anything that could possibly go to ruin.
He taught me...that patience in the area of "dating" is important. I shouldn't be searching. I need to be searching for understanding and greater things with God rather than a relationship and material things of this world.
All I can do is continuously thank God for the great friendships I've been blessed with and ask that He just blesses these people who are in my life.
I pray that the Lord will continue to show me what's in important in life and teach me to be the best friend that I can be to all people that are in my life.
That He would teach me patience through experience.
To be pure in my mind and heart, to not want things of this world, but to be all that He is.
I pray that the Lord does the very same for all of His people.
To have a friendship and relationship with the Lord is the best relationship ever and His love never ends.
He's the best.
May the Lord show you that the people in your life aren't a mistake, but rather a complete blessing no matter the type of relationship you have with them. To be patient with all kinds of relationships because we are all different and to love one another because He loved first.
Blessings on your day and weekend,
In the journey of faith in the light and dark,
-Mak
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