I have these firm beliefs that there is something so much more significant in life for all those who deserve it or who dedicate their time to what is meaningful.
I guess, that at times it's so easy for us to just...get foggy in knowing what is best, right, and believing there will be a brighter insight in what may be to come.
A friend of mine who I call, "Zelda" that I met at Moore, called me today.
She had updated me with her health status and how she was going to be further testing and help.
(My friend, has a lot of health problems and it's really sad. Though, it's not for me to state as to what those are.)
I felt....sad, but relieved in knowing she was seeking and furthering help for what she's facing.
She told me this as well, "I feel that despite I've withdrawn from Moore and am going through a rough time, just like you are in a sense, I feel God has led me to meet you for a reason and I am thankful. Thank you, Makaya."
This...touched my heart, sincerely. I'm not one to be very...emotional over sentimental things at times despite I am -a very sentimental, loving type of person deep down in my heart, I just..don't always know how to show that-
I very well...wanted to somewhat cry? I guess? I felt the feeling of my eyes swelling...
She continued on and then said this, "You gave me faith to know I could get better. I'm somewhat pessimistic because of my issues, but you make me feel worth something."
I silently cried.
Knowingly, that I've touched a life...I mean, I only knew her for maybe...4 weeks in school, then I left...
how is it that I've done good in a heart that I barely had known? How is it that God has chosen me to touch a life that wanted to not be of this world any longer?
I told her this, "Have faith. It'll get better and I'll pray for you. I don't know how I could have helped you before, or even in the end of it all, but what I do know..I am here for you in the hardship. I am here by your side. Remember that."
I told her to know, there is something more to what we have in life. There is something more to a life to be lived.
There is something more to her and who she is. She has a heart that is so much more than what she realizes. She's sweet, kind, and thoughtful. She IS a blessing to me, her family and friends, and to everyone who crosses their path.
I feel...her story has inspired me to just know there is something more to each person...deeper than what's upon the very surface.
I have known that, but to really..go digging...is what has gotten me thinking...why and how she is such an inspiration.
She is a girl who is something and worth more. Who is fighting a good fight. She is that light that has to be seen.
She has a brightness about her that has opened my eyes and I am so thankful.
Through hardships we see in other people, we see that through our own, together, we can fight a good fight, and see that there is always something more in what is, what is to come, and be gone...
There is ALWAYS something more with God.
God has given us both something more than what we bargained for, each other.
Each other to share a fight of hardship and to see that God is ultimate in the end of it all and that's what is something more in our hearts and lives today.
I am thankful that there is something more.
<3
Sunday, November 13, 2011
Sunday, November 6, 2011
Friendships
Friendships.
The relationships that are never ending, nor do the people that are so completely special to you ever lose a place in your heart.
What is a friend?
A friend who isn't just there for you, but who is willing to listen, hold you accountable, loving, caring, understanding, and forgiving of your well being and heart.
They're willing to go out of there way for you, not simply because they're attempting to be nice, but they want to.
They're willing to share interests, jokes, sarcasm, music, skills, life experiences/stories from their hearts so that you may learn as well of what they've gained in life.
They're willing to set you in your place whenever you're a jerk and still are completely loving and forgiving.
Or, simply, they just love to set you in your place for the fact of liking you for who you are.
Accepting all that you are and aren't afraid to say that nor show the emotions behind it all of how they exactly feel.
I've learned that...the friends that I have, I am EXTREMELY blessed by and so thankful for.
I don't know where I would be without any of them.
I must say, I possess some of the most awesome friends.
Not because they fit the 'category' of friend, but for the simple fact of
they're just...so surpassing of the genericness of a friend (i know that isn't a real word, but I needed something.)
I have had my share of friendships that were both healthy and unhealthy, if anything I've come to realize now, every single friendship had this deeper meaning behind that has built me up as a person..
These friendships were built on a foundation that was so firm...it can't be shaken.
These friends that I've made have chosen me for a reason. They saw something in my heart that was great and different.
I would have never thought I would have made the friends that I have now in a million years because when I was younger, I didn't believe in friendships, simply only people who I would merely talk to -if- I had to...not because I wanted to.
Now, I believe I have friends that I do no matter where they're located geographically, for a reason...a grace given to me by God...a blessing..that was given to me because I didn't deserve it, but due to the fact or principle that God wanted it to be so we made encourage and love one another for the heart seeing past all the flaws..so that we may become better in what God has created us to be; loving and compassionate beings.
All of the friends that I have now I consider a gain, hearts to respect, love, and value...
each and every single one of them a complete blessing...because I've learned things from them that I probably wouldn't of with anyone else.
Therefore, cherish your friends. Value them. Love them. Be all that you can be for them because you want to for God and that friend, doing nothing out of selfish ambition, but all for the better of that friendship and person being completely selfless and sacrificing.
People need that more in a person, a friend...more than you think.
To all of my friends that I've made all over the places I've lived, been educated, worked, etc...
Thank you. Just wanted to thank you for your undying friendship with me,
sharing all that you are in your heart and being,
trusting and having faith in me as a friend..
and
thank you for being YOU. Don't change yourself. Keep the faith and know that you really are respected, cherished, valued, and loved by a friend.
This I do because God has called me to do so and simply... because I want to. :)
Thanks for everything that you've been to me. You all are surpassing the very meaning of awesome in my eyes.
-Ends sentimental stuff here-
<3 Mak
PS. Be yourself always and never fear to share who you are. Some of us actually do care. :)
The relationships that are never ending, nor do the people that are so completely special to you ever lose a place in your heart.
What is a friend?
A friend who isn't just there for you, but who is willing to listen, hold you accountable, loving, caring, understanding, and forgiving of your well being and heart.
They're willing to go out of there way for you, not simply because they're attempting to be nice, but they want to.
They're willing to share interests, jokes, sarcasm, music, skills, life experiences/stories from their hearts so that you may learn as well of what they've gained in life.
They're willing to set you in your place whenever you're a jerk and still are completely loving and forgiving.
Or, simply, they just love to set you in your place for the fact of liking you for who you are.
Accepting all that you are and aren't afraid to say that nor show the emotions behind it all of how they exactly feel.
I've learned that...the friends that I have, I am EXTREMELY blessed by and so thankful for.
I don't know where I would be without any of them.
I must say, I possess some of the most awesome friends.
Not because they fit the 'category' of friend, but for the simple fact of
they're just...so surpassing of the genericness of a friend (i know that isn't a real word, but I needed something.)
I have had my share of friendships that were both healthy and unhealthy, if anything I've come to realize now, every single friendship had this deeper meaning behind that has built me up as a person..
These friendships were built on a foundation that was so firm...it can't be shaken.
These friends that I've made have chosen me for a reason. They saw something in my heart that was great and different.
I would have never thought I would have made the friends that I have now in a million years because when I was younger, I didn't believe in friendships, simply only people who I would merely talk to -if- I had to...not because I wanted to.
Now, I believe I have friends that I do no matter where they're located geographically, for a reason...a grace given to me by God...a blessing..that was given to me because I didn't deserve it, but due to the fact or principle that God wanted it to be so we made encourage and love one another for the heart seeing past all the flaws..so that we may become better in what God has created us to be; loving and compassionate beings.
All of the friends that I have now I consider a gain, hearts to respect, love, and value...
each and every single one of them a complete blessing...because I've learned things from them that I probably wouldn't of with anyone else.
Therefore, cherish your friends. Value them. Love them. Be all that you can be for them because you want to for God and that friend, doing nothing out of selfish ambition, but all for the better of that friendship and person being completely selfless and sacrificing.
People need that more in a person, a friend...more than you think.
To all of my friends that I've made all over the places I've lived, been educated, worked, etc...
Thank you. Just wanted to thank you for your undying friendship with me,
sharing all that you are in your heart and being,
trusting and having faith in me as a friend..
and
thank you for being YOU. Don't change yourself. Keep the faith and know that you really are respected, cherished, valued, and loved by a friend.
This I do because God has called me to do so and simply... because I want to. :)
Thanks for everything that you've been to me. You all are surpassing the very meaning of awesome in my eyes.
-Ends sentimental stuff here-
<3 Mak
PS. Be yourself always and never fear to share who you are. Some of us actually do care. :)
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
A Life to Please God.
Lately,
I have been experiencing my fair share of the up and down eras.
Although, these up and down moments have not hindered my faith, but rather have stirred up this curiosity and yearn for so much more in what I have now and will in time.
How to explain...
Have you ever felt that there was a certain someone, career path, or something so much more just waiting for you and you're all the more curious as to whom that person or what it could be?
Have you ever pondered what God's purpose for you so immensely that it causes you to ask God all the more to reveal to you His majesty and will?
To reveal to you that one person who will be with you until the world is no more?
These thoughts have arisen in my mind quite more than exactly wanted...
As in, I want to be content in my life where I am at so that I can live it all out loud all the more to please God and bring Him glory.
I don't want to be in a career path out of selfish ambition, but to bring Him glory and to use my hands on/ life experiences/talents in that career path or the life alone that I live for Him. If I weren't to do so, what would be the point in that?
Would there be an exact purpose?
I am praying to just lead a life for Him.
Relationships:
They're not about just the meaning of love, but what the action of love is. They're about a friendship that is cherished between the two people equally to where they've decided to be dedicated in a 'more serious friendship' that is called a relationship because of the love that dwells in their hearts for one another.
Relationships are to be about care, deep respect/trust, compassion, altruism, and faith in one another, God, and be a great example of what they stand for in this world.
From a Christian stand point,
I do believe a relationship between two people should be of Christ's love, putting on the Armor of God when living in this world so that they may influence others to follow in that example (following in the example of how Christ lived and loved His people).
To value what they have in one another.
The trust and respect between the man and woman is so intricate and divine, it cannot be hindered because the love is abounding through their veins so vast that it has shown such an uniqueness and greatness that should never be broken because the two people can do so much for one another to build each other up, to live for God and their significant other as practicing the love of Christ through showing their love to others as well.
(Does that make any sense? I don't know, but it does to me. Sometimes, I'm abstract, but I know what I feel and think).
I feel relationships have lost their true meaning and value because so many relationships are just in it for the other person and not on an equal value. How is that fair to the other person and you alone?
It isn't.
Sometimes, relationships are in it for the right reasons at first, but as time goes on, the honesty in the hearts cringe away because of the world tackling what was once healthy to make it a disease.
(I am not saying every relationship is a disease. I'm saying that they can turn to be 'emotionally deadly' and damage happiness for one person, despite one is happy, it will soon turn to a spread of a plague that destroys happiness and sometimes a once was friendship and what was between the two beings).
I see relationship after relationship between pretty much all of my friends. Most of my friends are dating and I am extremely happy for them. I want the best for the each of them and all the more being that their hearts are protected and healthy, nothing less, nothing more. Just for them to be happy and healthy in what they're involved of, and same for that significant other despite I may not know them or even if I do.
It's equal on all parts there.
My confession is...I'm feeling slightly jealous because I've been that, "best friend" to men, and don't get me wrong, I am HONORED, but I do have moments where I sometimes wonder if I've actually met that right guy already or not.
Apart of me feels I've definitely met a few potential guys that would be great for me, and I am for them...
Yet, what I need to remember and continue to do is God has a plan and that one perfect person for me and I am continuously waiting patiently.
I am not in a rush to go into a relationship, but I feel I've healed enough to enter a potential one.
Again, God knows who and the perfect timing for such a relationship to take off. I give Him all the more praises for Him helping me with how I feel in my heart, beliefs, and living for Him on this subject and life as it is.
In or not in a relationship or sure/unsure of our career paths, we should be living our lives to please God. That isn't always easy, but that's why we have a Savior and a God who loves us so much to help us with our daily living and to provide.
A thought of the day:
1 Thessalonians 4
Living to Please God
1 As for other matters, brothers and sisters, we instructed you how to live in order to please God, as in fact you are living. Now we ask you and urge you in the Lord Jesus to do this more and more. 2 For you know what instructions we gave you by the authority of the Lord Jesus.
3 It is God’s will that you should be sanctified: that you should avoid sexual immorality; 4 that each of you should learn to control your own body[a] in a way that is holy and honorable, 5 not in passionate lust like the pagans, who do not know God; 6 and that in this matter no one should wrong or take advantage of a brother or sister.[b] The Lord will punish all those who commit such sins, as we told you and warned you before. 7 For God did not call us to be impure, but to live a holy life. 8 Therefore, anyone who rejects this instruction does not reject a human being but God, the very God who gives you his Holy Spirit.
9 Now about your love for one another we do not need to write to you, for you yourselves have been taught by God to love each other. 10 And in fact, you do love all of God’s family throughout Macedonia. Yet we urge you, brothers and sisters, to do so more and more, 11 and to make it your ambition to lead a quiet life: You should mind your own business and work with your hands, just as we told you, 12 so that your daily life may win the respect of outsiders and so that you will not be dependent on anybody.
We need to be equally committing our hearts to God through everything we do and pursue whether it be a friendship, relationship, hobby, career, talent, etc.
Everything we do needs to be giving all the glory and praises to God through a life pleasing to Him.
God has taught us the right way to live, therefore, we ought to be doing as He has instructed with hearts and minds in the right place of God never out of selfish ambition or frustration.
If one does something out of sinful reasons, they're wronging another, themselves, and God.
We all have moments like these, but I urge everyone to evaluate where you're at in life, relationships, friendships, careers, anything for that matter, and upmostly God so that you're able to get back on the right track and never straying away like a lamb from its Shepard.
I pray that we all know the differences between right and wrong in our hearts for God so we may bring glory to Him, living a life pleasing in His eyes rather than for anyone else or ourselves.
I pray that we also find happiness and learn to truly value what is precious to us, our God.
I pray for all good things in His name.
As always, I hope this was food for a thought to all or some, whoever this reaches, I really pray and hope it has helped you in a significant way in your heart as it did in my own.
Praying for all.
<3
Mak
I have been experiencing my fair share of the up and down eras.
Although, these up and down moments have not hindered my faith, but rather have stirred up this curiosity and yearn for so much more in what I have now and will in time.
How to explain...
Have you ever felt that there was a certain someone, career path, or something so much more just waiting for you and you're all the more curious as to whom that person or what it could be?
Have you ever pondered what God's purpose for you so immensely that it causes you to ask God all the more to reveal to you His majesty and will?
To reveal to you that one person who will be with you until the world is no more?
These thoughts have arisen in my mind quite more than exactly wanted...
As in, I want to be content in my life where I am at so that I can live it all out loud all the more to please God and bring Him glory.
I don't want to be in a career path out of selfish ambition, but to bring Him glory and to use my hands on/ life experiences/talents in that career path or the life alone that I live for Him. If I weren't to do so, what would be the point in that?
Would there be an exact purpose?
I am praying to just lead a life for Him.
Relationships:
They're not about just the meaning of love, but what the action of love is. They're about a friendship that is cherished between the two people equally to where they've decided to be dedicated in a 'more serious friendship' that is called a relationship because of the love that dwells in their hearts for one another.
Relationships are to be about care, deep respect/trust, compassion, altruism, and faith in one another, God, and be a great example of what they stand for in this world.
From a Christian stand point,
I do believe a relationship between two people should be of Christ's love, putting on the Armor of God when living in this world so that they may influence others to follow in that example (following in the example of how Christ lived and loved His people).
To value what they have in one another.
The trust and respect between the man and woman is so intricate and divine, it cannot be hindered because the love is abounding through their veins so vast that it has shown such an uniqueness and greatness that should never be broken because the two people can do so much for one another to build each other up, to live for God and their significant other as practicing the love of Christ through showing their love to others as well.
(Does that make any sense? I don't know, but it does to me. Sometimes, I'm abstract, but I know what I feel and think).
I feel relationships have lost their true meaning and value because so many relationships are just in it for the other person and not on an equal value. How is that fair to the other person and you alone?
It isn't.
Sometimes, relationships are in it for the right reasons at first, but as time goes on, the honesty in the hearts cringe away because of the world tackling what was once healthy to make it a disease.
(I am not saying every relationship is a disease. I'm saying that they can turn to be 'emotionally deadly' and damage happiness for one person, despite one is happy, it will soon turn to a spread of a plague that destroys happiness and sometimes a once was friendship and what was between the two beings).
I see relationship after relationship between pretty much all of my friends. Most of my friends are dating and I am extremely happy for them. I want the best for the each of them and all the more being that their hearts are protected and healthy, nothing less, nothing more. Just for them to be happy and healthy in what they're involved of, and same for that significant other despite I may not know them or even if I do.
It's equal on all parts there.
My confession is...I'm feeling slightly jealous because I've been that, "best friend" to men, and don't get me wrong, I am HONORED, but I do have moments where I sometimes wonder if I've actually met that right guy already or not.
Apart of me feels I've definitely met a few potential guys that would be great for me, and I am for them...
Yet, what I need to remember and continue to do is God has a plan and that one perfect person for me and I am continuously waiting patiently.
I am not in a rush to go into a relationship, but I feel I've healed enough to enter a potential one.
Again, God knows who and the perfect timing for such a relationship to take off. I give Him all the more praises for Him helping me with how I feel in my heart, beliefs, and living for Him on this subject and life as it is.
In or not in a relationship or sure/unsure of our career paths, we should be living our lives to please God. That isn't always easy, but that's why we have a Savior and a God who loves us so much to help us with our daily living and to provide.
A thought of the day:
1 Thessalonians 4
Living to Please God
1 As for other matters, brothers and sisters, we instructed you how to live in order to please God, as in fact you are living. Now we ask you and urge you in the Lord Jesus to do this more and more. 2 For you know what instructions we gave you by the authority of the Lord Jesus.
3 It is God’s will that you should be sanctified: that you should avoid sexual immorality; 4 that each of you should learn to control your own body[a] in a way that is holy and honorable, 5 not in passionate lust like the pagans, who do not know God; 6 and that in this matter no one should wrong or take advantage of a brother or sister.[b] The Lord will punish all those who commit such sins, as we told you and warned you before. 7 For God did not call us to be impure, but to live a holy life. 8 Therefore, anyone who rejects this instruction does not reject a human being but God, the very God who gives you his Holy Spirit.
9 Now about your love for one another we do not need to write to you, for you yourselves have been taught by God to love each other. 10 And in fact, you do love all of God’s family throughout Macedonia. Yet we urge you, brothers and sisters, to do so more and more, 11 and to make it your ambition to lead a quiet life: You should mind your own business and work with your hands, just as we told you, 12 so that your daily life may win the respect of outsiders and so that you will not be dependent on anybody.
We need to be equally committing our hearts to God through everything we do and pursue whether it be a friendship, relationship, hobby, career, talent, etc.
Everything we do needs to be giving all the glory and praises to God through a life pleasing to Him.
God has taught us the right way to live, therefore, we ought to be doing as He has instructed with hearts and minds in the right place of God never out of selfish ambition or frustration.
If one does something out of sinful reasons, they're wronging another, themselves, and God.
We all have moments like these, but I urge everyone to evaluate where you're at in life, relationships, friendships, careers, anything for that matter, and upmostly God so that you're able to get back on the right track and never straying away like a lamb from its Shepard.
I pray that we all know the differences between right and wrong in our hearts for God so we may bring glory to Him, living a life pleasing in His eyes rather than for anyone else or ourselves.
I pray that we also find happiness and learn to truly value what is precious to us, our God.
I pray for all good things in His name.
As always, I hope this was food for a thought to all or some, whoever this reaches, I really pray and hope it has helped you in a significant way in your heart as it did in my own.
Praying for all.
<3
Mak
Friday, October 21, 2011
Weaknesses and Struggles can be made Beautiful
Lately, I've been experiencing my own share of struggles and I realize I have weaknesses that hold me back from succeeding.
These weaknesses that I struggle with on a daily basis, I accept the fact that the Lord made me this way. He made these weaknesses apart of me so that I may use them according to His ways to minister to others.
I am currently living with untreated ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder). This disorder affects many people both children and adults daily.
ADD is not something everyone understands, so I'm going to explain to you what it exactly is and how it affects me daily:
(reference information from: helpguide.org)
Attention deficit disorder–also known as ADHD or ADD–is not merely a problem with paying attention. ADHD makes it difficult to manage the multiple tasks of daily life, especially complex tasks that require organization, planning, and sustained focus.
ADHD is challenging, but once you understand the problem and how it affects your life, you can learn to compensate for areas of weakness and take advantage of your many strengths and talents.
People with ADD/ADHD have issues paying attention, accomplishing or even starting tasks, keeping organized, have problems with remembering tasks, events, or what they may have learned.
One may tend to procrastinate and be very 'scattered.'
There is hyperactivity and impulsivity involved as well.
Different symptoms can range in different people depending on their chemical imbalance and the amount of neurons being transmitted.
What I face:
-Disorganization with home/studying/note taking/time
-Forgetfulness
-A hard time paying attention
-Difficulty accomplishing or even starting homework/studying/several tasks.
-Procrastination
-Dealing with stress and frustration
(these are the ones I know for sure off hand that I can pinpoint that bother me daily)
Frankly, I feel what I am facing is so difficult at this point in my life to live with on a basis that can be controlled because I am taking classes in college and work 2 jobs, which is..realistically manageable by a 19 year old, but for me..it's becoming more and more of a challenge each day.
This challenge feels..almost impossible to overcome because I am experiencing stress and moments where I am so confused and unsure of what to do and how to deal.
There's not a day that I don't doubt I could improve, I just know according to God's timing..it'll work out for the best despite it is foggy right now.
It does not hinder my faith in God whatsoever. I completely am knowledgeable of the fact God has created me in such a intricate and creative way to where that I can do good despite my struggles.
Everyone struggles differently, this I know, but we should not let these struggles we face hinder our relationship with God, one another, how we go about our careers, schooling, or daily basis in life. We should rather be thankful we have these struggles and thank the Lord we can learn about ourselves and one another in His name. We are able to make something so beautiful out of these struggles to where, we forget the fact we even face the daily challenges.
God has given us what we have in our lives for a beautiful reason and I've found that the reason is to gain a sense of comfort in knowing that none of us are alone despite how much we may feel like it. The Lord understands and knows us best. He knows our struggles...and with how He heals us, is by working His Spirit through others to let us know, He is there and we aren't alone by having the ability to relate to others and encourage one another.
That is such a blessing that has made our struggles beautiful.
What is also beautiful in our struggles is that...we begin to trust in God so much more than we could have ever expected from our own hearts. God draws so near to us that it brings us to a state of worship and humbling ourselves before the cross. How awesome is that?
Also, for Him to use our struggles to minister to others...beautiful!
It's so true to say, "Lord, you make beautiful things! You make beautiful things out of us!"
We as Christians should remember that God helps us in our weaknesses/struggles and makes us strong every single time in the end of each state of difficulty.
Apostle Paul struggled, but he went to the Lord in prayer and prayed for guidance and strength. He struggled so much that He did not let those weaknesses hinder his faith in God one bit. We need to do the same despite the difficulty of just doing that.
2 Corinthians 12:9-10
9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 10 That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong."
All the more, we should praise God for how we were created and what we go through because it's all for a reason to better His kingdom and how we live our lives as a follower of Christ with Him and one another.
God has a plan for everything according to His wonderful timing. Don't let anything hinder your thoughts of where you should be, why you are experiencing something difficult, or why you were wired the way you were...it's out of God's creativity and love...out of His grace and wisdom...that you are who you are.
There is so much color to our lives that we are beautiful.
We are all beautiful through everything we are and experience all through the grace of God.
Ecclesiastes 3:11
11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet[a] no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end.
Never forget that you're not alone and are so loved.
God is so good to us. Each and every little thing is to be cherished as a blessing from God.
Praying for everyone out there.
<3 Mak
These weaknesses that I struggle with on a daily basis, I accept the fact that the Lord made me this way. He made these weaknesses apart of me so that I may use them according to His ways to minister to others.
I am currently living with untreated ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder). This disorder affects many people both children and adults daily.
ADD is not something everyone understands, so I'm going to explain to you what it exactly is and how it affects me daily:
(reference information from: helpguide.org)
Attention deficit disorder–also known as ADHD or ADD–is not merely a problem with paying attention. ADHD makes it difficult to manage the multiple tasks of daily life, especially complex tasks that require organization, planning, and sustained focus.
ADHD is challenging, but once you understand the problem and how it affects your life, you can learn to compensate for areas of weakness and take advantage of your many strengths and talents.
People with ADD/ADHD have issues paying attention, accomplishing or even starting tasks, keeping organized, have problems with remembering tasks, events, or what they may have learned.
One may tend to procrastinate and be very 'scattered.'
There is hyperactivity and impulsivity involved as well.
Different symptoms can range in different people depending on their chemical imbalance and the amount of neurons being transmitted.
What I face:
-Disorganization with home/studying/note taking/time
-Forgetfulness
-A hard time paying attention
-Difficulty accomplishing or even starting homework/studying/several tasks.
-Procrastination
-Dealing with stress and frustration
(these are the ones I know for sure off hand that I can pinpoint that bother me daily)
Frankly, I feel what I am facing is so difficult at this point in my life to live with on a basis that can be controlled because I am taking classes in college and work 2 jobs, which is..realistically manageable by a 19 year old, but for me..it's becoming more and more of a challenge each day.
This challenge feels..almost impossible to overcome because I am experiencing stress and moments where I am so confused and unsure of what to do and how to deal.
There's not a day that I don't doubt I could improve, I just know according to God's timing..it'll work out for the best despite it is foggy right now.
It does not hinder my faith in God whatsoever. I completely am knowledgeable of the fact God has created me in such a intricate and creative way to where that I can do good despite my struggles.
Everyone struggles differently, this I know, but we should not let these struggles we face hinder our relationship with God, one another, how we go about our careers, schooling, or daily basis in life. We should rather be thankful we have these struggles and thank the Lord we can learn about ourselves and one another in His name. We are able to make something so beautiful out of these struggles to where, we forget the fact we even face the daily challenges.
God has given us what we have in our lives for a beautiful reason and I've found that the reason is to gain a sense of comfort in knowing that none of us are alone despite how much we may feel like it. The Lord understands and knows us best. He knows our struggles...and with how He heals us, is by working His Spirit through others to let us know, He is there and we aren't alone by having the ability to relate to others and encourage one another.
That is such a blessing that has made our struggles beautiful.
What is also beautiful in our struggles is that...we begin to trust in God so much more than we could have ever expected from our own hearts. God draws so near to us that it brings us to a state of worship and humbling ourselves before the cross. How awesome is that?
Also, for Him to use our struggles to minister to others...beautiful!
It's so true to say, "Lord, you make beautiful things! You make beautiful things out of us!"
We as Christians should remember that God helps us in our weaknesses/struggles and makes us strong every single time in the end of each state of difficulty.
Apostle Paul struggled, but he went to the Lord in prayer and prayed for guidance and strength. He struggled so much that He did not let those weaknesses hinder his faith in God one bit. We need to do the same despite the difficulty of just doing that.
2 Corinthians 12:9-10
9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 10 That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong."
All the more, we should praise God for how we were created and what we go through because it's all for a reason to better His kingdom and how we live our lives as a follower of Christ with Him and one another.
God has a plan for everything according to His wonderful timing. Don't let anything hinder your thoughts of where you should be, why you are experiencing something difficult, or why you were wired the way you were...it's out of God's creativity and love...out of His grace and wisdom...that you are who you are.
There is so much color to our lives that we are beautiful.
We are all beautiful through everything we are and experience all through the grace of God.
Ecclesiastes 3:11
11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet[a] no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end.
Never forget that you're not alone and are so loved.
God is so good to us. Each and every little thing is to be cherished as a blessing from God.
Praying for everyone out there.
<3 Mak
Thursday, October 20, 2011
Lord, let us follow You.
"I will follow" -Chris Tomlin
Where you go, I'll go
Where you stay, I'll stay
When you move, I'll move
I will follow...
All your ways are good
All your ways are sure
I will trust in you alone
Higher than my side
High above my life
I will trust in you alone
Where you go, I'll go
Where you stay, I'll stay
When you move, I'll move
I will follow you
Who you love, I'll love
How you serve I'll serve
If this life I lose, I will follow you
I will follow you
Light unto the world
Light unto my life
I will live for you alone
You're the one I seek
Knowing I will find
All I need in you alone, in you alone
In you there's life everlasting
In you there's freedom for my soul
In you there joy, unending joy
and I will follow
It's often that not only myself alone struggle, but I forget to realize that we all struggle daily.
Some days, I can honestly say that I really do feel alone in how I live my life and how I struggle with my faith.
What I feel and actually do is completely different in certain moments.
As in, I'll pray to God about whatever, but is there moments I actually act it out? Yes and no.
I feel that once I go through a hard time, I tend to get so...'scared' of what it is then and is to come because I am unsure.
That feeling of being unsure is something that really eats at me.
I wouldn't say that I don't know how, but I do struggle to trust in the fact that I am where I am for a reason in the eyes of God despite it may not be clear to me.
I know that it doesn't have to be clear to me where I am at with my life because it's all clear to God where He wants, has, and will do for me.
I trust that God's ways are the ways to life. I trust in God.
But, I sometimes wonder that when I say, "I trust in the Lord." Do I really trust in the Lord?
Am I giving Him myself wholeheartedly?
Am I trusting Him with everything that I've got in my heart and life so that He may be glorified?
If I am not, then I want to. I want to do all that I can do to be what the Lord has created me to be for the glory of Him.
What I want is people to realize, God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called.
We are a called people who are always being qualified for the works of the Lord daily.
I am realizing that whatever all that it is that I am going through, these moments I will cherish all the more because they're for the glory of God.
These moments are the moments where God is building me up to be qualified because He has called me out of darkness.
He has called you out of darkness. He has called you into His perfect light.
How easy is it to say this, but to really trust in it!
I pray that all that we say in the Gospel of Christ when sharing all that we know of Christ is not only about reaching out in His name, but being able to apply all of the content to our lives daily in the act of Christ and love for Him.
I realize that all that all I experience is for the glory of God because He had it planned so that I may learn.
God wants me to learn and gain so much in His eyes. God would never put anything in our pathways to harm us. He only wants what is best.
This is what faith can do...
It brings me to share openly with all of you and my Lord what I struggle through and what it is that brings upon these thoughts.
Only a daily basis, I usually have tons of subjects that I want to blog about with my faith and how God is working...
It's hard to find time. God understands.
All I can also say is that,
How we follow Christ, is out of our lively acts, not just talk.
Act it all out. Don't be afraid. God knows your heart and that's all that matters.
Praying that we would have the courage to openly discuss our issues so we may help encourage one another in the faith and know
that what we experience is to help us realize God knows and none of us are alone.
We aren't alone in the faith and in God's eyes.
Acts 11:23
23 When he arrived and saw what the grace of God had done, he was glad and encouraged them all to remain true to the Lord with all their hearts.
I encourage you with a challenge,
To act out in faith.
To encourage one another in the faith.
To share all what's on your heart with God and one another, so that you may be healed and renewed.
Follow the Lord your God for He is good!
Praying for you all.
PS. I know my writing is somewhat scattered in this, but I believe you'll get the jist of it.
In the journey of light and dark,
<3 Mak
Where you go, I'll go
Where you stay, I'll stay
When you move, I'll move
I will follow...
All your ways are good
All your ways are sure
I will trust in you alone
Higher than my side
High above my life
I will trust in you alone
Where you go, I'll go
Where you stay, I'll stay
When you move, I'll move
I will follow you
Who you love, I'll love
How you serve I'll serve
If this life I lose, I will follow you
I will follow you
Light unto the world
Light unto my life
I will live for you alone
You're the one I seek
Knowing I will find
All I need in you alone, in you alone
In you there's life everlasting
In you there's freedom for my soul
In you there joy, unending joy
and I will follow
It's often that not only myself alone struggle, but I forget to realize that we all struggle daily.
Some days, I can honestly say that I really do feel alone in how I live my life and how I struggle with my faith.
What I feel and actually do is completely different in certain moments.
As in, I'll pray to God about whatever, but is there moments I actually act it out? Yes and no.
I feel that once I go through a hard time, I tend to get so...'scared' of what it is then and is to come because I am unsure.
That feeling of being unsure is something that really eats at me.
I wouldn't say that I don't know how, but I do struggle to trust in the fact that I am where I am for a reason in the eyes of God despite it may not be clear to me.
I know that it doesn't have to be clear to me where I am at with my life because it's all clear to God where He wants, has, and will do for me.
I trust that God's ways are the ways to life. I trust in God.
But, I sometimes wonder that when I say, "I trust in the Lord." Do I really trust in the Lord?
Am I giving Him myself wholeheartedly?
Am I trusting Him with everything that I've got in my heart and life so that He may be glorified?
If I am not, then I want to. I want to do all that I can do to be what the Lord has created me to be for the glory of Him.
What I want is people to realize, God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called.
We are a called people who are always being qualified for the works of the Lord daily.
I am realizing that whatever all that it is that I am going through, these moments I will cherish all the more because they're for the glory of God.
These moments are the moments where God is building me up to be qualified because He has called me out of darkness.
He has called you out of darkness. He has called you into His perfect light.
How easy is it to say this, but to really trust in it!
I pray that all that we say in the Gospel of Christ when sharing all that we know of Christ is not only about reaching out in His name, but being able to apply all of the content to our lives daily in the act of Christ and love for Him.
I realize that all that all I experience is for the glory of God because He had it planned so that I may learn.
God wants me to learn and gain so much in His eyes. God would never put anything in our pathways to harm us. He only wants what is best.
This is what faith can do...
It brings me to share openly with all of you and my Lord what I struggle through and what it is that brings upon these thoughts.
Only a daily basis, I usually have tons of subjects that I want to blog about with my faith and how God is working...
It's hard to find time. God understands.
All I can also say is that,
How we follow Christ, is out of our lively acts, not just talk.
Act it all out. Don't be afraid. God knows your heart and that's all that matters.
Praying that we would have the courage to openly discuss our issues so we may help encourage one another in the faith and know
that what we experience is to help us realize God knows and none of us are alone.
We aren't alone in the faith and in God's eyes.
Acts 11:23
23 When he arrived and saw what the grace of God had done, he was glad and encouraged them all to remain true to the Lord with all their hearts.
I encourage you with a challenge,
To act out in faith.
To encourage one another in the faith.
To share all what's on your heart with God and one another, so that you may be healed and renewed.
Follow the Lord your God for He is good!
Praying for you all.
PS. I know my writing is somewhat scattered in this, but I believe you'll get the jist of it.
In the journey of light and dark,
<3 Mak
Let it be for You.
Struggles.
What are they exactly in the eyes of God?
In my eyes?
Do they define who I am?
Do they shape my heart?
Is it all what helps me to differentiate between right and wrong?
What am I gaining?
What is it that I have loss?
When will I persevere?
When will I strive to unlearn?
When God...when will I know what is exactly my placement...
when will I know all that is right for me to pursue?
I know to praise You. To give all of my thanks...
Lord, I will not give up. I need the strength only you could give to me.
All I ask of You is strength to carry on.
Lord, I love You.
Let all that I learn to unlearn be all for You. Let all that I am in what I struggle be for You so that I may give You all the more praise, love, thanks, and glory.
May all that we ever write and go through in our lives, be for the glory and love of You.
What are they exactly in the eyes of God?
In my eyes?
Do they define who I am?
Do they shape my heart?
Is it all what helps me to differentiate between right and wrong?
What am I gaining?
What is it that I have loss?
When will I persevere?
When will I strive to unlearn?
When God...when will I know what is exactly my placement...
when will I know all that is right for me to pursue?
I know to praise You. To give all of my thanks...
Lord, I will not give up. I need the strength only you could give to me.
All I ask of You is strength to carry on.
Lord, I love You.
Let all that I learn to unlearn be all for You. Let all that I am in what I struggle be for You so that I may give You all the more praise, love, thanks, and glory.
May all that we ever write and go through in our lives, be for the glory and love of You.
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Take the Advice!
Greetings my fellow friends.
Have you ever been that one person friends would go to you for advice or words of wisdom? Help of any sort?
I know I have.
I've really pondered over whether how much I've helped a person and made some sort of significant difference in their thoughts or choices.
I have no doubt that I have, but it doesn't hurt to wonder what more could I do for a person?
What more could I say that would go deeper than the very underlining of meaning?
What could I possibly partake in to know that I've made an impact that sticks?
In my past, I know I've said and partaken in a vast amount of tasks that by God has made a influential pact on my surroundings.
Yet, right now I've been blessed by the Lord to be able to help and guide others, especially pray for them. That's just a blessing to me knowing I can help in such a way.
Do my words of wisdom even stick?
I firmly believe the only way such words that I speak will cultivate in the lives of others is that they're Biblically based. Firmly, I trust that the Lord will speak through me to answer others prayers, concerns, and worries by blessing me with the words of encouragement and the actions of love, compassion, care, and kindness.
God has taught us to encourage and love one another. To take advice deep to the core of our very being and hold steadfast to the advice from God the Father.
“Listen to advice and accept discipline, and at the end you will be counted among the wise. Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the LORD’s purpose that prevails.” Proverbs 19:20-21 NIV
Lord has a purpose for His words of wisdom and what is spoken to you at the time it is during whatever one may be experiencing. It's His love and timing that prevails. It's His ways that prevails. It's His PLANS that prevail because they're made out to prosper you, never to harm who you are.
God loves you so much that His sent His only Son Jesus to die for our sins and this living Word in flesh taught us to accept and persevere.
James 1:2-12
2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters,[a] whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. 4 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5 If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. 6 But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7 That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. 8 Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do.
9 Believers in humble circumstances ought to take pride in their high position. 10 But the rich should take pride in their humiliation—since they will pass away like a wild flower. 11 For the sun rises with scorching heat and withers the plant; its blossom falls and its beauty is destroyed. In the same way, the rich will fade away even while they go about their business.
12 Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him.
The Lord has brought me stability and taught me to take advice for not only myself, but for others who are in need. That's just a piece of what I've gained in my God.
No longer do I just question certain aspects, but now I accept what it is, knowing God is the ultimate advice giver in our lives in all types of experiences and times.
Trust in the Lord, for He is His God. God said, "I will be your God and you will be my people."
He loves yinz so much. :)
The Lord will bring stability to your life if you just trust and look for advice, wisdom, guidance, and the fruit of the Spirit in Him.
In Him, you'll find serenity in your heart.
I pray that all of you take the advice of the Lord and follow in His pathways where He is a lamp to your very feet.
Praying for you all.
In the journey of faith in both light and dark--In Christ,
Mak
Have you ever been that one person friends would go to you for advice or words of wisdom? Help of any sort?
I know I have.
I've really pondered over whether how much I've helped a person and made some sort of significant difference in their thoughts or choices.
I have no doubt that I have, but it doesn't hurt to wonder what more could I do for a person?
What more could I say that would go deeper than the very underlining of meaning?
What could I possibly partake in to know that I've made an impact that sticks?
In my past, I know I've said and partaken in a vast amount of tasks that by God has made a influential pact on my surroundings.
Yet, right now I've been blessed by the Lord to be able to help and guide others, especially pray for them. That's just a blessing to me knowing I can help in such a way.
Do my words of wisdom even stick?
I firmly believe the only way such words that I speak will cultivate in the lives of others is that they're Biblically based. Firmly, I trust that the Lord will speak through me to answer others prayers, concerns, and worries by blessing me with the words of encouragement and the actions of love, compassion, care, and kindness.
God has taught us to encourage and love one another. To take advice deep to the core of our very being and hold steadfast to the advice from God the Father.
“Listen to advice and accept discipline, and at the end you will be counted among the wise. Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the LORD’s purpose that prevails.” Proverbs 19:20-21 NIV
Lord has a purpose for His words of wisdom and what is spoken to you at the time it is during whatever one may be experiencing. It's His love and timing that prevails. It's His ways that prevails. It's His PLANS that prevail because they're made out to prosper you, never to harm who you are.
God loves you so much that His sent His only Son Jesus to die for our sins and this living Word in flesh taught us to accept and persevere.
James 1:2-12
2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters,[a] whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. 4 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5 If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. 6 But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7 That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. 8 Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do.
9 Believers in humble circumstances ought to take pride in their high position. 10 But the rich should take pride in their humiliation—since they will pass away like a wild flower. 11 For the sun rises with scorching heat and withers the plant; its blossom falls and its beauty is destroyed. In the same way, the rich will fade away even while they go about their business.
12 Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him.
The Lord has brought me stability and taught me to take advice for not only myself, but for others who are in need. That's just a piece of what I've gained in my God.
No longer do I just question certain aspects, but now I accept what it is, knowing God is the ultimate advice giver in our lives in all types of experiences and times.
Trust in the Lord, for He is His God. God said, "I will be your God and you will be my people."
He loves yinz so much. :)
The Lord will bring stability to your life if you just trust and look for advice, wisdom, guidance, and the fruit of the Spirit in Him.
In Him, you'll find serenity in your heart.
I pray that all of you take the advice of the Lord and follow in His pathways where He is a lamp to your very feet.
Praying for you all.
In the journey of faith in both light and dark--In Christ,
Mak
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